Hello, my name is Asia or Alex. I’ve been trans/nonbinary since I was in 4th grade, so around 9-10 years old, and I go by they/them/he pronouns. Growing up, I was constantly struggling with gender identity because I felt like I never fit in with the girls nor boys. I was always considered the tomboy of the group because I never fit into any of the bubbles. I remember in 5th, maybe 6th grade, I came out to my friends as bigender (having two gender identities for me, I was a boy and a girl and went by he/she pronouns), and I finally felt good cause my closest friends started using pronouns that weren’t just she/her. I remember in high school, I was so nervous because we all know how high schoolers can be when someone doesn’t fit within the norms. I went by a different name at the time and he/him pronouns, and on the first day of freshman year, one of my teachers had asked me if I wanted to use that name or Asia, but I was so worried about what people had to say that I just went by Asia. Also, around that time, I was struggling with gender and body dysphoria. For those who don’t know what gender dysphoria is, it’s when one becomes so stressed and overwhelmed with not being the gender they were assigned at birth. With this, it has caused me many body issues with how I look and sound. My chest frustrates me because I’m a 36/38 c/d, so they’re not small, and it’s hard to hide them with binders (I can barely breathe in them) and sports bras. Not only that, but I’m allergic to latex, meaning I can use trans tape to help with that. The way I sound is one of my biggest insecurities because, for me, it’s not only because it sounds too feminine, but it also doesn’t represent who I am as a person. As you can see in my cover picture, I’m wearing makeup/face paint that’s because it’s getting extremely hard to look at myself, knowing I’m not me. My parents somewhat support me, they aren’t homophobic, but also, they don’t understand nor use my correct pronouns and stuff. Nothing against them because they are about to be in their 60s, but now that leaves me with only myself. I also deal with depression, anxiety, adhd, etc., so it’s hard for me to go to doctors’ appointments due to how bad my anxiety gets when I’m in hospitals. My family is currently going through financial struggles to the point of my having to drop out of college because my parents, along with the military, were helping me pay for college, but with everything going on in the government and the financial issues, I unfortunately can’t pay for college anymore. You may think, why won’t you just get a loan? For my family personally, we don’t do loans due to having to pay back loans; it’s always been a no within my family. I’ve tried to get jobs, but not only is it almost impossible to get a job, but I’ve had only one job at the beginning of this semester, which I had to quit due to my mental health, because I never had time for school, myself, family, and friends. I would wake up on a day I had no classes and go straight to work at 8/9 am and wouldn’t get back to campus till maybe 6/7 pm. I still would have to catch up on any homework and still would have to study. On days I did have classes, I would get out at 1:15 and had to be at work by 2 pm. Those days didn’t end till 8/9 pm. So, the stress from that, along with my mental issues and gender identity, makes it hard for me every day to keep going. That’s why I’m asking for help; I never liked the idea of starting a GoFundMe because I know everyone has their own issues going on to deal with. But it’s gotten to a point that I have to ask for help. So, if anyone can spare a few dollars to help me cover Testosterone, that would be amazing! Testosterone is the hormone that is mainly found in biological males. When biological females take it, they slowly start gaining the things that happen to men during puberty, such as a deep voice, more body hair, bottom growth, fat redistribution, basically just becoming more masculine. My personal goal is to look androgynous because I love the way they can present themselves, and the only way I can do that is with help!