Help Alvin Honor Terri's Legacy

Hello, my name is Julie. The donor is Alvin. His wife of more than 50 years passed away in April. I met Alvin & Terri when their son & I started dating. We lived together for 10 years. Dustin's parents live in Hawaii. Although Dustin & I are no longer together, his parents & sister, Jennah, have always had a place in my heart.

I have recently started talking to Jennah online. I had asked her to tell her mom 'Hi' for me & that I thought about her often. Jennah did call her mom & told her. Terri was an amazing person. She touched the lives of all who crossed her path. Terri & Alvin live in an old sugar plantation house on stilts. You can see the ocean from the kitchen window. I wouldn't say they were poor, however what they earned paid the bills & allowed Alvin to pay for his insulin.

Cutting to the chase....I love these people with everything I have to offer. Dustin & I are a thing of the past. His mother, Terri, once you met her, you never forgot about her. She made living worthwhile. Terri has been my hero since the first day I met her. Her passing was unexpected. Alvin & Terri made it month to month. Without Terri by his side, the anchor of the family, Alvin is left with making ends meet. Alvin is a type 1 diabetic. With that said, Alvin needs to have insulin daily. Along with paying for his insulin there are medical bills that need to be paid. Terri passed in April. They have not had a memorial service. Unfortunately there is no money. Terri gave to anyone in need even though she had very little to live on. Most would say that she shouldn't have given the little money she had to others. Possibly, yet that was not what Terri stood for. It saddens me because this woman deserves a memorial that demonstrates the love she poured out to everyone she crossed paths with.

Honestly, I get why most people find it hard to donate $1, $5 or $10. It's not because they are unable to financially, it's because why should we. I don't donate, I don't give homeless people money at a stoplight. I think to myself it's not my fault you ended up homeless. Get up, clean up & get a job. Six months ago, I left an abusive relationship, I believed or knew that if someone didn't help me monetarily, my dog & I would be living in my car. I collect disability retirement from PERA. I didn't ask for Bipolar it just showed up. And if anyone read what I wrote prior to my editing today, I get that no one wanted to donate even $1. Well, that's mania at its best.

The GoFundMe donation I set up isn't my story. It's about the story of Alvin & Jennah. Husband & daughter of Terri. They want to pay their final respect to a wife & mother who meant the world to them. They have absolutely no money to hold any memorial. You can always dig a hole, like you would for your dog in your backyard, drop in & shout 'catch you on the otherside,' and throw the dirt back in, however that's creepy & probably illegal.

I assume at some point all will have to be forgotten. I don't know what happens when you can't afford to bury a loved one.

Why me? My mania kicked in & I believed that I could raise more than $65. I know myself and if I read about donating to a memorial for someone I didn't know, I absolutely 100% would not even consider donating $1. Waste of time.

I guess I should be happy with $65. My goal is $5000. Only 4,935 $1 donations needed. I'm determined. It takes 5 min to make a $1 donation. Then spread the word. I don't have 4,935 friends. It's hard to keep friends when you have bipolar. If I can make $1 or $5 donation and I'm always a pension check every month from living in my car. It's not the time or money. The donation serves no purpose. Why? When you give $1 donation you are not over the moon for donating to a cause to people you don't know. I really wouldn't. Guess What? I will be over the moon ten times over, in fact I just might start my manic cycle (love mania at its best) I'll be 100 times over the moon for a $1 donation. Can you donate 50¢? I'll post how grateful I am to every dollar donation. Every dollar will always be a dollar closer to the goal. It's less than the cost of a candy bar or a small bag of chips. And I bet you have to stand in line longer than it takes to donate. It's crap food that taste good. Yes, you are correct I will stand in line at the gas station for 15 min. You could do both...get your crap food & donate a $1 to Terri's Memorial. If you think my logic or take on this doesn't move you to donate once again, $1. Please leave me a message. I really would like to know why...and not the reasons I stated above. Tell me why. Honestly I don't know why. If someone was asking only a dollar I probably would take 5 min to do it if it meant that much to them. And if I haven't mentioned it it means the world to me...I love Jennah 100x over. I want Jennah to have the chance to pay her final respect to her mother where memorials are held. Not in the backyard of her childhood home. If I read just that line, me, someone who has never donated a dime to any worthy cause because I'm selfish. Yes, I'm selfish. It's not about being too poor I don't want to give my money up. If I read that sentence above & all I had to do was take 5 min & donate a $1 I would do it. Now telling my friends...I don't have many. My bipolar gets in the way of maintaining friendships. However, I would tell the two I know & one would be Jennah.