I am in need of community support more than ever. I have lost everything due to stalking. I can't do this alone anymore and I sure as fuck can't stay silent anymore. (And pardon my French, but I'ma drop some F bombs) My life was stolen from me 2 years ago and I've had to rebuild my life 3 times over. The weight and psychological toll is no longer one I can bear alone. Abuse Thrives in isolation.

I have been displaced twice by force, having to flee my home for my safety. The police will do nothing about it. This most recent displacement has been one of a whole new level, as I was rendered homeless, left to sleep in my car with my 2 dogs in a parking lot for over a month. Leading up to that, my home was broken into repeatedly, and my computer and phone were accessed & compromised. My identity and online accounts were all stolen and I was locked out of everything. I ran a very successful online business from home, which was my main source of income. It was shut down as a result of getting locked out of my accounts.

The last 2 months have been what seems like one devastation after another after another. My home burnt down with my personal belongings in it, right as a was starting to move out. Not too long after, my car was stolen, and then my baby boy Tobias was hit by a car and killed. Soon after, I had my own incident where I was hit by a truck. I'm leaving out details but I still can't feel my right arm, I've been walking on a double sprained ankle, and my broken ribs will heal whenever they decide to? (I guess that's how that works?? lol) Before all of this happened, I had hope, and I had joy. And Oh my god, and I had a life savings. FAAAK I had a good life savings. That was drained almost immediately in 2024 after incident #1. (Are you happy now, asshole?? I know you're reading this. Congratulations, you got me!)

Okay I digress, I'm supposed to be sentimental on this thing, not cussing up a storm. Let me try again. I miss my community and I just want to reclaim my life again. Unfortunately this is an issue that many people can't (or won't) empathize with, and as a result I have been blamed, shamed, and told to get over it. No one can, and no one should -ever- have go through this alone. Most people can't be bothered with it, or it's too heavy for others to hear about it, or handle the psychological toll it has taken on me. I've lost my family support, and I've lost my friend's support. I am so grateful for the one person who didn't give up on me when everyone else did. She showed up at the right time, in the perfect way. And I am even more grateful that her compassion and human kindness inspired me to reach out to 2 more old friends shortly after. It's these 3 people who have given me hope that people are still good and the world is not a cold and cruel fucking dark ass place. And then the kindness of a stranger who found my baby and took care of him until he passed while I was in the hospital. I am so grateful my baby had the love and care he deserved when I was incapacitated. I have received more unconditional love and kindness from this small handful of people than I have seen in the last 2 years from the world at large. Thank you for restoring my faith in humanity. I will always remember the acts of kindness when they mattered the most <3

I am taking a huge risk in setting this up for myself, but I have run out of options. Support tends to run dry very quickly when it comes to the topic of abuse and stalking. It mentally takes its toll on survivors who then get painted as being helpless, having a victim mentality, deemed as irritating, or mentally ill, and then we are ostracized, and abandoned. We get looked down upon, seen as not being positive enough, and written off as hopeless. Our abusers push us to our limits and then the world calls us crazy, paranoid, weak, and overall shames us when we are psychologically affected and beaten down against our will. I am a fighter and a severe optimist, but like I said (probably 3 times now lol) I can't fucking do this alone anymore.

This is not okay. What happened to me is not okay. Anything I raise will be used to get an apartment, start my business over from scratch (for the 3rd time!), repair my car, (oh yeah! the cops found it completely trashed and the transmission is now shot and of course I only had liability, go me!) Knock out some of the massive debt this has caused, buy living supplies, groceries, and all around rebuild my life.

This shit is EXPENSIVE yall. Stalking is no joke. They're clever, it's inescapable, and it's very difficult to catch and punish them. Stalkers harass their targets so relentlessly, in unbelievable ways, that we sound like the non credible ones when we finally speak up or reach out. I'd give you more juicy deets, but I promise, you don't want them. This won't be easy, but I have to rebuild my life... again. I want nothing more than to be me, to feel like Allie, and participate in life like I used to. And then do a One Woman Show about this fucking shit. Fuck. Y'all don't even know the half of it lol. But youz about to, bitches!! Stay the fuck tuned

I FUCKING MISS YOU GUYS!!! I love you all so stinkin much!!! If you can't donate, Come hang out! Gimme a call! You can take me out for some dirty tots at Tank House and then we can hit up the Comedy Spot and then when I laugh it'll remind me I still have broken ribs

xoxoxoxo. Allie