Help Alex, Dakota, and Taiga Escape

UPDATE: we have reached the goal! thank you all so, so goddamn much. i can't express in words how much this means to me, and to my cats. that said, every $20 donated means another week i'll be able to feed myself, dakota and taiga after i leave, so please, if you would like to donate despite the goal being reached, feel free to do so. every single cent will make an enormous difference in our lives!

my name is alex james, or legally, lenni schulz. i run @taigathetigress and @dakoughta. i am in a dire situation with a profoundly abusive and unhinged person, my mother, who is a danger to me and my cats. unfortunately, i am also in deep medical debt, my credit is ruined and i'm unable to work from severe trauma and because i live in such an isolated area that i cannot get transportation.

my therapist doesn't think i can fully begin to recover from my trauma and mental illnesses until i'm away from the source of my extreme stress and pain, my mom. but with no money, ruined credit, two cats who i am not willing under any circumstances to leave in her care, and an inability to work, i'm trapped.

i desperately need help with at least one of those factors. i need an escape fund. if worst comes to worst, i need to be able to leave and feed myself, dakota and taiga for a little while. currently, i am staying with my boyfriend for a few days and i'm afraid to return home as things are coming to a head between my mother and i. the past few days over text we've been involved in a fight, where she:

cruelly and callously told me she was having one of my cats (teacup) put to sleep, right then, denied me the ability to come and see my cat before she passed and blatantly ignored me when i said i was upset and angry over the situation. this was because i had asked her for some money so i could eat and care for myself while i was away.
accused me of opening an amazon prime account and using my grandmothers credit card to do so. i did not do this. she used her anger over this imagined crime to excuse why she was so cruel to me when she had my cat put down. she implied that i was lucky she didn't press charges. again, i did not even do this.
tried to guilt, manipulate and gaslight me by saying that i am extremely ungrateful, she supports me unconditionally, and has overall tried to make herself the victim of this situation, where she became convinced i had stolen from my grandmother and then had my cat put to sleep. she also heavily implied it was my fault the cat died, after i asked her to please stop talking about the cat in question. me trying to set boundaries with her makes her more angry than anything.

if you would like to see screenshots of this conversation, please feel free to dm me on twitter.

i have come to realize over the past few months that she is truly losing her mind. i can't help her, and i can't let her drag me into insanity with her. when i'm home she comes into my room constantly to manipulate me, start vicious fights with me, openly give me the silent treatment or bang things around while i'm trying to sleep. a few weeks ago she crawled into bed with me while i was sleeping.

she's always been extremely resentful of having to do anything for me or give me anything, but it's become so much worse recently, to the point where i use toilet paper when i'm on my period instead of pads to avoid asking her to drive me 7 miles to the store.

recently, when she picked a fight with me, it resulted in me having a screaming, sobbing breakdown where i slammed my body against the wall behind me repeatedly. while i sobbed, she told me that it was my fault for always arguing with her.

i truly believe she's reached a point where she can't even see how almost comically abusive, cruel and manipulative she is anymore. the situation with her is hopeless. i just need to get away from her before her behavior sends me to the psych ward again.

she has always been highly abusive, refusing to send me to school as a child and keeping me extremely isolated, hitting me, screaming at me for hours on end everyday, threatening to kill herself if i ever leave her, coercing me, manipulating me, gaslighting me. i fear that her behavior  is escalating as her mental health worsens.

i am highly motivated to recover and i want the three of us (myself, dakota and taiga) to live happy lives far away from her. i need to escape the relentless abuse i've been facing for 25 years. if i had a few thousand dollars saved somewhere, then i at least would have the option to leave. i am terrified for my rapidly deteriorating mental health. i am terrified for my beloved cat family. we live in hellish conditions with a woman who constantly terrorizes me and makes me question reality. please, please donate or share this gofundme. thank you so much.

ADDITIONAL INFO:
i am 25, agender, bisexual and living in the rural south. i have been trying in various ways to move out since i was 18. the problem has always been a lack of money and my mother coercing me to stay with her, usually by threatening to kill herself if i leave.

i have been to vocational rehab. they told me to apply for disability.
i have tried to apply for disability. my mom wont drive me to appointments to see my attorney.

i have been diagnosed with ADHD, generalized anxiety disorder, PTSD, borderline personality disorder and major depression. i am also a recovering alcoholic, two years sober.

our living conditions are a nightmare, not because my mother doesn't have the money to fix things, but because she refuses to. my window has been broken for years, we do not have a stove or oven, the front doorknob is broken, the toilet is broken, the kitchen sink is broken, the washer and dryer are broken, the ceiling is caving in and overall the house is hazardous and truly miserable to live in.

i have become increasingly afraid of my mother kicking me out without warning, or getting physical with me in some way. i am also afraid that while i'm visiting my boyfriend, she will do something to my cats. i really believe we may be in danger.

if you have any questions about my situation, please feel free to contact me @taigathetigress and ask. i'm very open and willing to answer just about anything.