Hi I’m Aleah. [tw for mentions of physical, emotional, and mental abuse]

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I am a survivor of emotional, physical, and financial abuse as well as a Covid survivor who became more disabled in 2022 after my first but possibly second covid infection. I developed vertigo which is what I believe to be dysautonomia, then also developed tinnitus, and fibromyalgia. I went from working as a courtesy clerk 35 hours a week to working 20 or so, then I had to quit. I tried to see if my pain would go away with rest but it never did. I am now unable to do what I used to do. I have tried applying for disability but nothing has come from that.

Over the past 5 years I have also been exposed to mold due to a mistake involving a moldy cup I lost behind my bed, and then the second time living in a cramped leaky apartment where the furnace room leaked directly into my bedroom as well as leaks coming from multiple places when it rained. So I have experienced really bad mold illness before and this likely disabled me as well. I am still sensitive to mold. I have been financially abused by my dad from the age of 25-27 when I found out he took many credit cards out in my name. He also took my identity and got into my bank account draining it more than once. He has since paid me back a bit but the stress was awful and I have had a hard time recovering from that mentally and financially. I have experienced physical abuse from both my parents but mostly from my dad which came to a head around my early to mid 20s as well. I defended my sister from his verbal abuse and he decided to grab me by the neck and push me into the kitchen sink at the time. I wanted to escape them but couldn’t. He’s luckily not in the same house as me anymore but this gave me a lot of ptsd. Made me realize I cannot rely on either of my parents for any real help let alone healing.

While still living and struggling alongside my family, I sold my car to pay rent and for a year I lived off my savings while I sat in intense grief for my health. Right now, I am trying to recover as much as I can, create a routine, create as much stability for myself so I can build some independence. I am very privileged to rely on my family but my mom is very ableist and puts me under a lot of stress. recently she has threatened to kick me out for not living up to her idea of where I should be at as a disabled person. I would love to recover some of my savings for a car or to cover car insurance so I can start to rely on my family less. I set the amount at where it is to hopefully get back to where I was financially before my life was upended, but even a fraction of the amount posted will help me out in the long run. I could also use anything to go towards managing chronic pain and mental health. If you choose to donate or share I really appreciate it as I really could use a bit of a boost. Thank you