Hello, my name is Nyxie, my pronouns are She/They, I’m an Artist and Photographer in the Kansas City area, and as of the time this goes live it will be close to March 8th, 2026, and I’ll be 35.

And what I want for my birthday… is a new life.

The short version: I’m $35k in credit card debt after a long, disaster filled life, and I’m trying to start anew and move to Baltimore.

If you want the long version, read on.

My story starts in a small town in West Virginia, I lived there for about 25 years, there wasn’t much to do, I hadn’t realized I was trans yet, and because of that I made a lot of bad mistakes, tried to fill the holes in my heart with either hobbies or career changes…all in all just chasing the high so I wouldn’t think about where I lived and how I felt, I racked up credit card debt as that was how I filled the void instead of drugs or thrill seeking, I didn’t feel like I’d live long enough that it would matter so, what's $10k on credit cards, right?

That changed in 2015 when I met my partner and after deciding on it, I moved to the Kansas City area in January 2016. I bounced from job to job, nothing really fit right, everything felt wrong…the pandemic happened…I ended up going further into debt. We had to pay rent on a newly cleared credit card, I went to school for IT and basically got ripped off for a cert that didn’t help me any, so it ballooned, we did what we had to survive, but I buried us…I burned out of IT, eventually went back to an old job and transitioned in June of 2024. I knew what was coming, I didn’t care, finally I felt alive, the holes in my heart were finally being filled.

That brings us up to today, Kansas has just enacted a heinous bathroom ban and invalidated drivers licenses and documents of trans people, I do live on the Missouri side, but stateline is only a mile away, we go to kansas to grocery shop, play tabletop games, see friends…my partner even works over there.

I don’t feel like I have the time to figure out my debts on my own, I feel like worse is coming, and I need to relocate to a state that is safer than one right next to one of the worst places for trans people. I want to move to Baltimore, Maryland.

I have community and friends there, and possibly even some work opportunities, but I don’t want my old life to keep dragging my new life down. My debt ballooned after I moved the first time and I do not wish to commit the same mistakes.

I’m an artist, I’m a photographer, my specialty is queer portraiture and alternative fashion and lifestyle portraits. I'm just starting, but I know it's my calling and my talent. I want to work towards that dream without my old mistakes hindering me.

I want to move, I want to be with friends and community and truly feel safe, I want to run a queer photography studio and make art with others. I cannot do that with my old debts tying me down to Missouri.

So I am asking today for help, from my community, from my friends, from strangers…to give me a chance to live the life I was denied through youthful idiocy and the pain of dysphoria.

I am $35,000 in debt on various credit cards and loans, all with high interest rates that take the majority of my paycheck, even if I moved tomorrow I would be unable to sustain my life and pay off these debts, I would get behind, and then it would get worse.

I am usually someone who prefers to be behind the camera, not in front, but today I am filming this because I am directly asking you to help me, and for that, words just won’t cut it.

I hope you can find it in you to donate, but I understand if not, I am at the mercy of everyone's kindness.

Thank you, truly.

-Nyxie.