I am reaching out to my community and anyone else with resources to help me in this time of deep need!

I participated in the Portland "Tboy Wrestling" show on Saturday night, 10/11/2025, performing as an amateur wrestler.

During my performance that evening, I sustained a severe injury to my knee during the 2nd round of my match (nobody is to blame, as injuries can & do happen in combat sports all the time).

I finished the match after stabilizing myself (you can see this all in the footage of my match), & stayed the rest of the evening on my hurt leg in an attempt to have fun and stay in community.

My wrestling partner & I even "won prizes" that evening!!

Myself & a few others were announced to win money (which none of the winners received, & turns out was a scam-sadly).

Regardless of the injury & broken promises of $$ winnings, I had a great time in community, & with friends there that night.

You can even see footage of me *limping* up to win my prize at the end of the show with a GIANT SMILE on my face.

A lot of had fun expressing ourselves that evening, despite the other really terrible things happening (unknowingly to a lot of us) behind the scenes, & would come to light later on.

I felt my knee jump out of socket quite a few times & I almost fell over/down the stairs quite a few times during the evening after my match, but hoped it would pass, thinking I had a dislocation.

I live with a lot of daily pain & disabilities, & naturally assumed my body was being bratty from all the excitement.

I woke up the next day to find that I could not walk at all, & I went to the ER for help. Turns out, things were much more severe than I assumed.

I have a bucket handle meniscus tear, which is quite severe, it places part of the ligament into my knee joint, fully locking my knee into place. I am fully unable to bend my knee & is extremely painful & very, very swollen.

I have not been able to return to work since the incident on 10/11/25.

I -ALSO- have a fully torn ACL that needs to be reconstructed, & they will remove part of my quadricep muscle for this procedure to help rebuild my ACL, making my recovery harder and longer, unfortunately, as I also heal my thigh muscle along with my knee.

Despite my injury, & the lies with the prize winnings (& harm to the community caused by the event coordinators, which I'm not going into here).

I honestly had the BEST time of my life that evening being in community with other rowdy trans folks who were there to perform, express themselves, or just have a fun consensual rumble together in front of an audience.

Hearing and seeing contestants express such joy being seen as themselves, while the audience members cheered everyone on, while also having a great time in community feeling seen as themselves was one I won't soon forget.

It's really hard to reconcile what has come since within the community in terms of harm & hurt.

So many people have been hurt in this.

I personally haven’t been able to work/generate income since the wrestling match on 10/11/25 (injury date) & I won't be able to go back to work until I am recovered from healing up after surgery, as my job as a body piercer requires me to bear full weight on both of my legs while stretching & bending over clients all day long.

I’m asking for help as a single parent, as I cannot work until fully healed. I have a substantial amount of monthly bills to maintain in order to keep my family & myself fed, housed, & feeling safe during these times.

I am the sole provider for my (17yr old) teenager, myself, & my dog.

We are also, preparing for my 17yr old Trans Son to get his top surgery in mid-March, so saving up my PTO is no longer an option for his surgery recovery time in Spring. This is all a huge bummer right now, & I'm feeling VERY panicked. This is where I look to community for help & support.

**For transparency**

I don't need help with medical bills, as I have OHP (public health care - & they cover everything medical - THANKFULLY!).

I do, however, need help with bills & basic life expenses, & a few other items for AFTER surgery.

I have an Amazon wish list I will link for those items.

I have applied for, & am awaiting a decision from Oregon short-term disability, which helps for 12 weeks of my time off, but I anticipate more than another 8 weeks of time off since surgery has not been scheduled yet. I am afraid I will not be able to cover my bills and expenses during my entire recovery time - most likely into February/March.

All donations will go towards my monthly bills/expenses, groceries, post surgery medical care needs, help with meal planning for myself and child, my lost wages until I am able to return to work in the spring.

Examples to justify needs (for transparency) are below:

~ My rent is $1900/month on top of water/sewer/electric/rental insurance.

~ Groceries (for 2 adults)

~ Basic house needs for 2 adults (toiletries/soaps, etc.)

~ My dog's food etc.

AMAZON WISH LIST WITH SUPPLIES FOR HEALING:

https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/SO5Y23WE92QI?ref_=wl_share

Thanks for reading all the way to the end!! XOXO