Hi my name is Bryson Barrett and I have battled addiction to heroin and meth for the last 5 years and it has come to a tipping point. It has taken everything i love from my freedom to family, it has gone so far that it has made my wife pull away from me, the most painfull thing if felt in this life is knowing that i have been self sabotaging The Things and relationships I love the most there is no way to describe how much it hurts to look at your wife and see no emotion or love in her eyes. There is nothing more frustrating than than having a demon on your back that controls your evry decision. You want to be there for them you want to protect and provide but that beast on your back gets ALL THE ATTENTION. I can't explain why we do what it says cause i know it is wrong and its not what i desire yet evry time no question about it what that beast says will win ten times out of ten. I believe that beast will take my life,  if I don't stand up and destroy it tonight! Somehow I know that if i don't do this now by my 40th birthday I'll be underground.  So I have taken control and reached out for help i check into a detox tomorrow and im not backing out. I am asking for help with the amount of the treatment and also a bit to help pay the mortgage and bills these next few months I wouldn't ask if I wasn't desperate for the help!

My wife bless her heart for doing all she does just can't cover it ALL without my income to help. I know it's an issue that I am responsible for and I take full accountability for my actions. I am however trying with all my heart to fix myself and the family's situation. I am truly sorry and sincere in this recovery and I am. In no n way copping out on this. Anything is greatly appreciated. This is the most urgent situation I have ever had to find a way out of it was a life or death decision at the point I was at. Thank you for anything you can do I am excited to see happiness again.