Hi. I am a 40 year old woman with 2 children, ages 18 and 14. Due to the sensitivity of my situation, I cannot use names. (I didn't want to but I guess I don't have the option to remain anonymous )

I am in desperate need of help.

I have been in my marriage since 2006, which was always riddled with mental and verbal abuse. For the first 5 years, I worked 100 hour weeks while he could not work due to an injury. After he received surgery, he began to have extra martial affairs, including with my sister. I have been trying to leave since 2011. He has not allowed me to work since 2014. We lived with his parents for 10 years, despite my efforts to change that. He could not get a job due to his criminal record, so we worked really hard to get past that. There was some physical violence in the home but due to living with his parents I was very limited in getting legal help, with no where to go. I ended up having a stroke from him hitting me in the head. His family would threaten to keep my kids if I left or reported the abuse. I choose to take the silent secret path to leave, but not being allowed to work greatly impeded my progress. Eventually he got a job in oil, and that's when everything got worse. He started meeting prostitutes, and when I discovered this I told him it was over. The next year was filled with extreme fighting and increased physical altercations. Police were called, but since he usually hits me with a fist in the back of the head, the police say they can't prove he hit me. I had to get help from a stranger to move out of his house, with shared custody and no intention of requesting anything monetary in the divorce. Shortly after moved, I was approached by a man who ended up being a gang member my husband hired. I was attacked for ten days in my home, in every way possible, at gun point. That man did go to prison, with only a felony stalking charge and a faked compentency evaluation which ore wanted me from protesting his guilty plea, which I felt happened to prevent my evidence of gang involvement in government out of reocrd. After that event, my ex tried to lie to child protective services in an attempt to kidnap my kids, to avoid child support. While I was dealing with them, (which they did not believe me about the attack nor the abuse because my ex was the one who called them, )my social worker knew things about the sexual assault I suffered and mentioned this in a family meeting. So I reported him for having gang connections , which he then committed perjury in the courtroom to retaliate against my complaint. I never had a positive ua not a criminal record, and they took me off UAs but intentionally did not tell the company who does them. I kept going and when I went into court after that, my case worker lied to the judge and said I missed them, when he intentionally tried to make me miss them. This resulted in a custody order that forces me to live with my ex, and I cannot get anyone to help. He has taken my car, he steals my IDs, he tries to force me to have sex in exchange for food and housing. He mentally abuses me and the kids, and forces me to go to the store with him where he calls me retard and other things in public. CPS will not intervene because my case provides evidence of corruption in the county I live . Two weeks after my case worker committed perjury, the abuse and neglect judge was caught helping known cocaine traffickers and a school coach who sold cocaine in school. He was disbarred, and only charged with obstruction, and none of his cases were ever evaluated for malpractice. The state attorney general has opened an investigation into gangs using CPS to threaten and harass victims of crime because of my case, but they cannot help me with my personal situation. During the last 5 years, my ex has committed tax evasion by claiming 10 on 120k a year. This has resulted in 17k in owed taxes and property liens, which is how I lost my home and was forced into his in 2023.

Recently, I have been diagnosed with traumatic brain injury causing permamnet disability. I now required medicine to digest food, and if that stops working I may end up with a feeding tube. This is a direct result of him hitting me in the head but the police will not let me file charges. I also have no health insurance , I'm not allowed to leave my home for anything that benefits my life positively, without extreme reprocussions from my ex. I am trying to get help from the police, but due to the state attorney general investigation also investigating the police, they refuse to help me. All physical events and the attack are recorded with them however. (For their liability I imagine)

My car was in my exes name when we separated, and the agreement was the child support payment would be paid as the car payment. 550 a month, requested under good cause in the court. ( Good cause allows a spouse to receive less than the state mandated child support amount because it puts the receivers safety at risk.) Once CPS got involved, he kept telling me if I just had sex with him he would make CPS go away, then it changed to if I didn't have sex with him hed let the car get repoed. That's exactly what he did. He's trying to demand I pay that debt as well. Because of the custody order, if I leave without my kids it's felony abandonment and CPS will take my rights immediately. If he leaves with them it's felony kidnapping. If I leave with them, he will try to take them back using the courts, which is why I have to involve the state in the countys actions. (I cannot involve the state until I can drive to the captiol. )I could possibly be charged with kidnapping, however the custody order says the kids are full custody with me for purposes of school. After CPS wrote that custody order however, they have tried to open 17 cases since, 14 for educational neglect and 4 medical neglect threats. My son sleeps in class due to the abuse in the home. My ex uses things like sleep torture, food restriction, and basic survival needs as tools of abuse and control. My oldest is also on the austitic spectrum and hasn't been able to receive appropriate help due to her father's control. This is a extreme example of abuse that most people do not understand, and it is extremely hard to get help for this type of abuse legally in a regular setting. I cannot receive assistance from legal services or domestic violence shelters ,because they say being a victim of a gang crime excludes be from receiving help at a shelter. The only option I have is to relocate with name changes but that organization will not do this until the custody order is removed.

So as of now, I am in his home with my 2 kids, no car and starving. I will be filing a federal pro se lawsuit at the Capitol which is a hour drive away . I am asking humbly for help, to get a car, and to use 1200 of the funds I'm asking for to get my mother's inheritance to me out of pawn, which was pawned for medical care and food 3 months ago. I will be requesting the state remove the custody order, and place my spouse in abuse treatment. I will be attempting to request the amount of 7 years of lost minimum wages from CPS, since I am able to file a lawsuit against them as they violated both requirements that protects them. (Parental alienation and violating my federal rights as a victim, by forcing me to live with the man who paid the gang member to attack me) I just have to have a way to get to the captiol , I am alone I have absolutely no one in my life to help me. The FBI are also aware of my case, as there are connections to a current missing person case and the man my ex hired to assualt me. I'm hoping once they pick him up, he will admit to the truth of the crime.

I'm here because I have nothing and nowhere else to go. We are currently moving also, into a home where my bedroom will be the garage. I plan on going to police again this week to see if I can get them to tell him sexual extortion is a crime as well. However anything I try to do to better the situation or help myself is either sabotaged by my ex or I suffer events of abuse that are retaliation for trying to get help. Once the police contact him, my safety will be at risk and the police do nothing about this. I have tried this tactic 3 times now, since 2022. I feel like I'm out of options, I am in fear for my life, and the lives my children will live if something happens to me.