Help a desperate woman overcome her worsening hardship

Is this pathetic and desperate? Probably because that's how I've been feeling as of late. This spout of bad luck started in May after losing my job following an arrest ON MOTHERS DAY after my daughter was falsely accused of something and I took the blame. This wouldn't be the only time I spent in jail. Once every month since. I was getting unemployment, but for some reason it stopped and I had to reapply and since reapplying it's been almost 2 months and I still haven't gotten a single payout because they're still trying to make a decision even though I had already been getting benefits for this job loss. This eventually led to my car getting repossessed. After the loss of my car things progressively have gotten worse. My job search has to stop because I don't have a way to get to work or even my interviews. Yes I have an onlyfans, but the way I have to talk to these men and the things I have to do I felt so shitty about myself and it is now neglected I had even considered selling my body to Make ends meet and had some clients but I couldn't go through with it . I was offered help by an old friend but he ended up wanting something In return and I was hurt by that and it made it harder to trust anyone. I'm afraid I'm going to lose and push away this amazing man of mine that is doing all he can to keep us from losing everything, taking care of me and my kids. I've fallen into this depression and I feel like an empty shell. The only time I get out of bed is to let my dogs out and feed them.. I'll eat sometimes if I feel like getting up and the gym... when I'm there I'm not really THERE. My kids are starting to notice and it's taking a toll on my relationship as well... thoughts of ending my own life cross my mind more often times than not. I've had to be strong all my life after enduring loss of my dad, then watching the man that raised me go through ALS that took his life, my sister being murdered and then saying goodbye to my Gpa after he fell off his roof and endured brain damage that left him in a state that he never woke from. Idk how much longer I can stay strong and keep myself together. I know money isn't a savior or the key to happiness, but for me and my family it's a start. I'll appreciate any help that can be given. I've lost my faith long ago, years before this so if you're unable to help at least keep me in your prayers. <3