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Help a CPTSD survivor fund her recovery program

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Hi, my name is Melodie, and I am a survivor of narcissistic abuse, attachment trauma, and spiritual trauma. I started struggling with symptoms of complex PTSD when I was a sophomore in high school at 15 years old. These symptoms include but are not limited to:
  • severe depression
  • self-harm
  • suicidal ideation
  • chronic inflammation
  • PMDD (pre-menstrual dysphoric disorder)
  • binge-eating disorder
  • crippling general and social anxiety
  • OCD
  • intrusive thoughts
  • emotion dysregulation
  • chronic severe dissociation (also known as derealization/depersonalization)
  • chronic eczema/psoriasis
  • heart palpitations
  • adrenal fatigue
  • brain fog
  • IBS
  • early-onset arthritis
As you can imagine, living with these effects in my day-to-day life has made it extremely hard for me to hold a job or navigate the process of going back to school, let alone plan for or have a concept of a future.

I am now 27 years old, and while I have diligently pursued any healing methodology I could grasp over the years--Western medicine, acupuncture, changing my diet, exercise, prescribed medication, therapy, energy healing--with some having more beneficial or even harmful effects than others, the most effective practice I have come upon in recent months is nervous system healing, or somatic work.

Currently, I am taking part in Irene Lyon's 21-Day Nervous System Tune-Up as well as doing intensive therapy 2x a week with a therapist who specializes in attachment-, somatic-, and emotion-focused therapy. I have experienced life-saving and positive results from both. However, I am living off of my savings from my previous job, food stamps, and Medi-Cal, which does not cover the cost of my therapy.

After doing my research, the program that I believe would help me get to a good enough place in my life to:
  • actually live without daily suffering (physical, mental, or emotional)
  • engage with the world and with people from a place of connectedness as opposed to fear
  • hold down a job long enough for me to move out of an unsafe environment
  • pursue my dream of starting my own shop that sells products to help spread awareness about complex trauma

In brief detail, here is an overview of the program:
  • Start date: September 25th (registration ends September 19th--I realize that this GoFundMe is last minute, but I had only gathered enough motivation to create this within the last day).
  • The next program start date would be: March 2023, which I am willing to wait for
  • Cost: $1997 (I get a discount of $300 because I am a part of her smaller program. Therefore, I'm asking for $1750 to cover the cost of the program and the transaction fees that GoFundMe automatically deducts)
  • Length: 12 weeks

As mentioned above, I am currently taking part in her smaller program, which has given me a comprehensive introduction to the work of nervous system healing. The SBSM program would be much more in-depth and target healing at the root of my trauma.

My whole life, I have had a hard time asking for help, and growing up, I received the message from my parents that I wasn't worthy of the money that was spent on me. So asking strangers for money has been unthinkable, to say the least. But I have come to a point in my life where I believe I have nothing left to lose by taking a chance on kindness, and even if I am only funded $5, that is $5 more to invest in my chance at a better life.

If you've read up to this point...thank you. Whether or not you choose to fund my recovery journey, the time you've taken out of your day to care about my life story means a lot. While trauma is an isolating experience, I believe connection is its antidote. Thank you for connecting with me today.
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Santa Ana, CA

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