Help a Brave Mom Reclaim Her Life. Survivor not victim
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- I'm a 37 yr old mother of 3 biological kids and one step kid I raised without help or even her mom around period since she was 4 months old and her dad was a goof provider and dad until things went downhill about 5 yrs ago. I have been in this man's 26 yrs. This final sick torturing run I made it 20 yrs. 13 yrs we would have been married June 4th which happened to be the court date for my no contact order I had placed and the beginning of the sick battle to find someone to listen to me and get a divorce. Therapy has helped me realize that I can and have been narcissistic and domestically abused this whole time. I was controlled like a puppet. I was accused of doing things I'd never do and in the end and on my exit bullied and harassed by him and his daughter until I had no choice to walk away leaving my kids and 20 yrs of hard work and dedication to being a amazing mom and wife. I have 1 drawer of clothes that don't fit now.. if my momma and pops hadn't had a room I'd be in a shelter. I gave been failed by the court as they had failed to even file my protection order even after going to court once on my anniversary and first time ever in a courtroom. Traumatized and crying as I hear girls my daughters age tell how they wanted protection because their bfs said they'd slash their siblings throats and have put hands on them. I never wanted to be in this position I would have never signed the papers to marry if I knew divorce was even a option. He made me look insane and I admit I did go out a reactive abuser. I never said anything untrue or disrespectful to anyone but I was loud and aggressive with my words and still no one is listening. 7 months July 1 I've been away from my kids. I have a paralyzing anxiety called agoraphobia and just now learned it was a disability and could get some financial support to help me pay legal aid since even the free aid offered told me they accept my case and will assign to a lawyer and get back with me. Just got the call saying all attorneys are full and they can no longer represent me. Disability takes six months them a fight to get. The church won't help me if I am not working and I don't know how I can with the anxiety alone which is also intensified due to his jealousy and accusing me of sleeping with any and everyone I knew. I am working side jobs and hustle on OF mental and the spicy content and it's a legal legit tax paying gig but it isn't enough and I am tired of being away from my kids and held back he illegally shut down my bank account the day I left Jan 1 and even though not married he will not allow me in the house to stay with my kids. If I even go there it's always a chance that he will have a issue. I am and have been screaming for a year now. On my exit his daughter knew I had been learning and going to therapy and told me her dad's step grandpa molested her until she was 7. When I told her dad he didn't even hug her and has made my kids think therapy is a pitty party. I just want to help her and be with my kids in a place of our own and finally divorce this monster. Every penny counts every person who reads this counts and if you don't mind sharing the gofundme link as well I will forever be grateful.
Organizer and beneficiary
Nicole Brooks
Organizer
Hillsboro, MO
Josh Gore
Beneficiary