Helios’s Eye Condition

Anything help! Everything donated will be used for future vet fees as that is the only thing stopping me from taking my child in. I only have the goal set to $1000 because I don’t know how much his next vet visit will be. His first two visits came up to $700. I am currently struggling financially and cannot help my fur baby the way I want to. Our renewal lease has increased and we were only given 1 month notice so I am struggling every day to find a house as well. I am a full time student and work part time with less than 20 hours a week. And mmm I have recently just gotten a car a well and JUST did the first months payment, otherwise I would’ve used that to take my child to the vet.

About 2-3 months ago I started to notice my kiddo was starting to squint his right eye a lot… it didn’t bother me too much until one day… he keep both his eyes closed and started bumping into things. That same morning he went into the vet and after many hours of waiting and testing they couldn’t find what was wrong. So they gave him the cone of shame, medication and ointment that goes in his eyes. Then they gave us instructions for his medicine and the bill and sent us off home. Although we had to borrow $$ from family to pay for the vet bill he seemed to be doing fine and it made me happy.

One week go by and I start to notice something wrong with his left eye. His left eye soon started to close and started to become irritated and again, he no longer opened his eyes anymore. I was scared that I wasn’t applying the ointment right. Because if that I was worried sick. Took him in for another vet visit, this time I sat outside and waited and waited. They tested for a scratch again and there was nothing. We were then given 2 options: 1, allergy medicine and a stronger ointment with steroids that goes in his eye or 2, all of that but also have them swab his eye and send it to the lab to have them grow the bacteria to see what it is so they can prescribe the correct medication for that specific bacteria.

Because I was financially unstable (still am), I decided to just go with the first option. We borrowed $$ again, paid the bill and went home. He started to slowly get better and would open his eyes from time to time but it was like once every 3-4 days.

2 more weeks go by and I started to worry, he wasn’t showing any signs of getting better or even opening his eyes.. after the medication and ointment ran out I started to panic. I thought he just needed time to transition out from the cone (so he won’t try to itch his eyes and make it worse) and having no more medication. So I washed their bed sets, towels and even gave them all a bath.

At this point I started to cry every night before I slept. I started to feel like it was my fault and I didn’t love him enough. Started to feel guilty that maybe if I watched what he did and what he ate I would’ve caught on to it. His eyes starting to turn milky soon and I couldn’t do anything else but watch my kiddo suffer because I am still financially unstable. My kiddo is no longer energetic and don’t play around anymore. He no longer plays with his sister and would just sleep everywhere he went. I started to see him just sleep all day and the only time he got up was when he knew it was feeding time or when it was time to go to the bathroom.

It’s been 2 weeks since we ran out of medication and ointment…. However, my kiddo still won’t open his eyes… whenever I catch him with his eyes open I always hope for a miracle. But it still saddens me because I still can’t do anything for him. I’ve came to acceptance that there’s a possibility that my baby may be one of two things. Either fully blind or partially blind. my first baby… the love of my life is suffering and I can’t do anything about it… if only I made enough $$ and if only I can give him one of my eyes I would do so in a heartbeat!