Help with healing - a home after trauma, illness

With encouragement from friends, I've put this together to help me and Rocky (my dog, who keeps me going when I feel like there's nothing to live for) move forward after many setbacks over the last few years. Any little but helps. I just need to heal, mentally and physically, and this can't happen when I don't know if we'll have a roof over our heads in the future.

Venmo: @corrieo

PayPal: corjulortATgmail.com (replace at with @)

In August, I attempted to move to Southern Oregon to start over after living in my tiny trailer through two Central Oregon winters with no running water or indoor plumbing and a small generator for power. I was mentally abused for three months after I moved and was eventually physically assaulted. My trailer was trashed, leaving me homeless.

Shortly after going to stay with friends in the Portland area in late January, I started battling antibiotic resistant upper and lower respiratory infections. That were eventually diagnosed as pneumonia.

My doctor has forbidden me from doing anything strenuous until mid-May because one of the side effects is tendon damage/rupture. She also has ordered testing for autoimmune disorders and testing on my thyroid because it's enlarged with nodules.

I've been looking for trailers for three months, but haven't been able to find one in my budget because they get snatched up, sight unseen, even when I've responded to ads within a half hr of being posted.

That was the long short version. If you want to know more and possibly hear me repeat myself because I'm exhausted and still have a bit of brain fog from the antibiotic, continue on.

As of April 3rd of 2023, I'm 4 1/2 years sober.

I'm a frontal lobe brain trauma survivor (2014).

I have fibromyalgia and severe allergies.

I've spent a few summers cooking for wildland firefighters.

I hate asking for help.

When I took my last drink, I thought everything would fall into place - at least from what I'd seen from others I'd met in sobriety.

Life had other place, though.

After my failed attempt to move to Southern Oregon, I'm currently homeless because my little trailer, my home, was trashed after I was assaulted and left to stay with a friend.

I'm and trying to buy a trailer and get prepared to move to a place we can settle, where I can heal physically and mentally, where I can work, and we can safely call home.

We've been staying in an inexpensive hotel while I recovered from pneumonia, but that's no longer financially feasible, and it's time to find a place to settle or we'll end up living in my car, putting me back at risk for another relapse in the respiratory nightmare I've been experiencing since late January.

My car needs some work and a new battery. I need an eye exam and contact lenses because my last contacts tore and my glasses are old and scratched and I can't see. My car insurance and registration are due. I need gas to travel back to Roseburg to salvage what I can from my old trailer, as well as back and forth to Bend for Dr appointments.

When I get a trailer, I'll need to seal the roof, buy a new mattress and new bedding, pots, pans, dishes, pretty much everything you would need when starting over. I'm good at thrift store shopping, but things like a mattress can't be thrifted, and I'm trying to set myself up to succeed, so a new mattress is vital for my bulging lumbar discs and resulting nerve entrapment. There will be registration and insurance for the trailer, as well. And first month's site rent + deposit or gas to move it to Colorado for work.

After months of looking in a tough market, I've found a trailer, but when I was diagnosed with pneumonia, I had to use some of my trailer budget on life - hotel, gas, food, meds not covered by insurance, etc., and can't ask the person buying my trailer to make up the difference.

But without it, I'll miss out on a deal that's too good to pass up on. Perfect size, good condition, it's already in a decent, affordable RV park here in town, on the Crooked River, and I have the option of staying there. Or I can tow it to Southern Colorado for a job/living opportunity and have free rent in exchange for work. These are both amazing opportunities, but I need help to do either of them.

I thought I'd have a job and income by now and these things wouldn't be a big deal, but after being sick for over two months, I'm just now getting to where I'm able to function without getting exhausted from basic daily living activities

I've been lucky enough to have people help me, but it's time for me to reach out and ask for help so I can create a secure base for both of us - currently I have two options that will provide work and a place to put my trailer, but it's going to take money to get there. I need to get out of this cycle of barely hanging on and depending on others for housing. I have solutions, but I need to get there.

Prior to August, 2022, I had been living off-grid in my 40+ year old 16 ft travel trailer for two years. I went through two high desert winters in sub-freezing temperatures with only a small generator for power and my trailer's old furnace for heat. Two years with no running water or usable indoor plumbing. It wasn't easy, but I did it and I survived while making the most of my surroundings.

Late last spring, my cousin came to visit and saw the conditions I was living in and offered me a spot on the property where he was living. This resulted in the failed move to Southern Oregon and subsequent problems resulting from that move.

This is a tough subject to approach because my cousin died in January, and I don't like to speak ill of anyone, much less those who have left this earth. But I was assaulted by him and his girlfriend - an event that put a fissure through my family and still haunts me. I loved him like a brother and don't fault him, but I'm now without a home and have lost a lot.

I need a place to call home, where I feel safe and can heal. I've been moving around since November, but that's not conducive to finding a job and settling down. I need to stay in one place vs move every month or two so I can work and be independent.

It's time to get myself to a place where my body defaults to fight or flight mode before the prolonged high cortisol levels cause permanent damage. It's time to feel safe. But I can't do it without your help.

Thank you.