handicap modified van.with ramp

Hi, my name is Jennifer Paden. I'm 42 years old with 4 children. My worst nightmare came true 10 months ago when I let someone crack my back. She dropped her knee in my back and paralyzed me from the neck I have no use of my hands or anything from the neck down .My whole world fell apart. I no longer get to live with my children. I no longer get to play with my kids. I can't teach him to ride a bike, or swim. I can't do anything I used to love. Camping, hiking and skating. This list goes on and on and on. The things I will never do again.I can't even sit and listen to the kids playing because it hurts. Loud noise cause me physical pain.   I need a van. My children live an hour away from where I'm staying. I got hurt now my oldest daughter is playing mom and taking care of my 7 year old. Please help me you guys. My insurance said if I can just obtain the van they'll pay for the modification. I've become prisoner to this body, the last 10 months I have also been a prisoner to this house. I can't work anymore and disability only gives me 609.00. a month. After rent there's nothing left. I'm quadriplegic so I have no use of my body , just my head and arms are good ,  My hands don't work however, I've got to get back into life. I've become extremely depressed. I'm in a dark place and I want out of here. I want to get back to life but I need some help getting moving. I'd be so grateful y'all Thank you for taking the time to hear my story, Have a blessed day.