On June 27th, just three days after the gender reveal, I was told the worst news a mother could ever hear — your child is not compatible with life. I never envisioned my first pregnancy turning into such a nightmare in just a few short minutes. Maternal fetal specialists confirmed our baby boy had many critical parts of his brain missing (cerebellum, pons, brain stem), severe hydrocephalus, atrioventricular deviation causing flattened heart valves, abnormal forearms, clubbed hands, three fingers on his left hand, missing radius bone in his left arm, & cleft lip/palate. Every decent parent in the world would move mountains to protect their already born children from suffering from any kind of illness or sickness, especially a terminal one. I was faced with the impossible decision to terminate my pregnancy so that my son would not live a short lifetime of suffering, if he even made it to birth. The doctors also advised me my life would potentially be at risk later on in the pregnancy as well if I attempted to carry to full-term. This was evident, considering I had to be unexpectedly admitted overnight due to complications from the procedure. I made the decision that no parent should ever be faced with, and I made it solely out of love.

Unfortunately, the laws and regulations were not on my side for this level of protection to my unborn child. I was not qualified for any assistance through the hospital or government due to the situation and, again, the laws regarding non-viable, unborn children. Insurance also does not cover any cost. I am asking for donations to help pay the hospital bill from the heart-shattering procedure I had to endure. Healing emotionally and physically is hard enough, but the financial burden also weighs heavy on us. If you cannot donate, please pray for me and my partner, Caleb. We miss our sweet Talon so much.

“You chose to live a lifetime of pain, so your son did not live a lifetime of suffering.”