Trying to stay above water

As most of you know, I lost my best friend, my lover, my parter in life. My boyfriend Dennis Baltimore, who was killed in a ski accident were he was a children's ski instructor at NorthStar kids ski school & Ski Resort. A child's was coming down the Mountain and sadly was losing control & In order for Dennis to try to prevent a collision, Dennis tumbled and sadly succumbed to his injuries with internal bleeding to his abdomen & lower brain area almost immediately. (Even though he had ALL of (his safety equipment on) Unfortunately, it wasn't enough. I know my baby died an hero saving that kids life & is now an angel, but I miss him everyday. We were living in South lake & moved to Incline Village, so he could be closer to work and sadly, we were only in our new home weeks until he died. Even though he his gone, his memories are everywhere & each day is a true struggle to breathe without him. Nobody plans to lose their lover, soulmate & parter in life- Me 31 & him at 35. He was the better half and made everything about life worth living to me. Dennis and I were pregnant with our miracle baby and I miscarried at 11 1/2-12 weeks. It was just another loss and another blow to my heart to add to the grieving I was already going through. I am doing my very best, but I am truly struggling. Everyday it hurts to breathe without him physically here and if it had not been for my close friends, my brother/sisters, My Nana and my Mom & Dad, Dale (Dennis' Father), &nthe support from my job, I would have NEVER made it this far, not only emotionally, but financially. I am stuck with multiple medical bills since Dennis was under my health insurance, bills from our miscarriage and our everyday overhead bills that I am barely making it every month. I have always been that independent girl who never needed help or would ask for help, but I ask of you, from the bottom of my heart, I need help.. I have gone through a horrible ordeal with his first GFM acct. bc his addict birth mother flagged it as "fraudulent" and there was so very little I could do at the time, so I decided instead of fighting with her and expecting logical thinking from her, I woukd just have GoFundMe refund each person and they could decide how & where they wanted their money to go-So EACH donation was refunded. I kept Zero of that GoFund Money. I know most can't afford much, but I do ask, please give what you can. This fund will be covering the monthly bills that I can barely afford since Dennis isn't here to put is half in, the medical bills & the actual therapy I am having to pay $150 at each visit for, since my health insurance won't cover anything until I meet my $5k deductible. I appreciate all of your kind messages and thoughts about Dennis and I appreciate whatever you can contribute to this campaign. I can always be reached by email [email redacted] or by phone [phone redacted].
Again, I thank you from the depths of my heart ❤️
Jillian
http://blog.sfgate.com/ski/2016/12/24/death-of-an-instructor-attention-must-be-paid/#photo-782560
http://www.kolotv.com/content/news/Northstar-employee-killed-in-ski-accident-406037385.html