As a 16 year old girl I moved away from home to follow my dreams and finish my highschool education (in an alternative learning style enviroment) to pursue my dreams of becoming a journalist. Since then I havent seen my family any more then maybe two times. Most years are hard around this time but this year is going horribly. Between being diagnosed with long term medical health issues that may put me in a walker in the near future to having depression and home sickness it was going bad enough. My family is always scared for me. However this time it's my turn to be there for my 86 year old grandmother who took me in with her husband to raise legally as their own child at the age of 65, as well as my mother and father who miss me terribly and the rest of my family. Each year around this time we seem to lose someone else. This year we lost my great nanny Mary. She meant a lot to all of us and my poor grandmother has had a terrible year of worry with all of this going on. I never got to say goodbye to Nanny Mary but I would like to have that chance. I also would like to help my grandmother through this difficult time. My whole family has been terribly worried about me and I feel like seeing me would increase their spirits at this morbid time. I also worry that if I dont come home soon I may never be able to; between drs appointments and medications my family can't help me much with this journey. The reason this trip is costing so much in fact is because due to symptoms such as full body seizures, fainting, black outs, dizzyness, disorientation etc; it is not safe for me to travel on my own and I also need my medications to prevent me from getting stuck in a Newfoundland hospital during what is supposed to be an uplifting and soul healing experience for my family. Ive said it once and I'll say it again... This trip means so much more than me selfishly getting to pay my own respects; it means encouraging the spirits around me. The course of action here and the cheapest way of travel for myself and my partner is going to be driving to the North Sydney ferry; (getting a cabin for the night if not my symptoms will be drastically worse the next day) driving the rest of the way and probably staying with family. I'd need to get my medication before I leave as well as some food for the journey (if not the dizzyness and blackouts increases). Please help me to take this opportunity to be with my family I've so stubbornly taken on. Anything helps whether its a box of granola bars for the road or helping pay for gas/meds or ferry passage. All is appreciated more than you could ever know; not just by myself but by my whole family... I know this would make a lot of their years much happier as they miss their little girl.