Time just stopped when the doctor delivered the news. I am a CCRN 22 years. I love my career! Unfortunately that has been swept away..now i have to go on SSD. I was just diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer that has metastasized to my brain. I am only 47 years old- young and active- with so many things left to do! I cant really remember everything...i just know i became ill due to my brain swelling. I had a stroke, layed in my bedroom for 2 days comatosed. My daughter was unable to get in touch with me. I was found in my home uncincious, unable to speak or follow any commands. I was taken to the ER where a CT scan was performed on my head..to find >10-/2-3 cm brain tumors that were compressing brain tissue causing tissue damage. I suffered a stroke. This ER would then send me via ambulance to Roanoke, a better facility capable of treating my condition. I spent 2 weeks in ICU. the doctor told my 18 yr old daughter i would live maybe 2 weeks if that due to the inability of resolving the swelling in the head. BUT i am still here! So they started intensive radiation therapy on my head, medications, and fluids. The swelling did go down and it took some time but i eventually came around having no idea all this had occurred. I feel like i am still sitting in front of the doctor delivering the painful news of my diagnosis. I have decided that i want to live. I am going to fight with all i have. I completed the radiation march 27th. I am now going to battle the lung cancer! And im going to win! I am not one to ask for anything of anyone. I have worked my entire life, taken care of my children and myself, but i have come into a position where i have to reach out now and ask for help. Due to my terminal condition i met the criteria for SSD. BUT i wont be eligible for my 1st payment until October 2019, which leaves me with no income for 6 months. This govt says that everyone waits for 6 months before 1st payment. I applied for a suuplemental income for this 6 months, but have been told it is approx 750 monthly- i dont know about you, but thats not an adequate income to pay rent and household bills. I am reaching out and asking if anyone can help me, i am looking to cover my rent, food and household bills for the next 6 months until the SSD kicks in. I live in a home with my 18 year old daughter, who might i say has shown me what a beautiful, loving, compassionate strong young woman i have! We have no where else to live, and i have been stressing over where this money shortage will take us. If you can anything would be qppreciated and helpful ---if you are in a position where youd like to donate but are unable, please pray for us!