Giving my baby boy everything he deserves

The past few days I’ve cursed God &’ screamed, kicked &’ pleaded for what is a mother’s worst nightmare to be a dream and not reality. I never thought I’d ever have to make a post or be doing a go fund me because of it, in my life. This has honestly and truly been the worst thing I’ve had to go through. Greyson Ezekiel you are my world , my light. My reason, you brought me out of the darkest of places and saved my life when nobody else could, you helped mommy more than you’ll ever know in every way you gave ME life. I will forever do my best to live up to become everything you deserve because I promise you baby boy we will be reunited some day. My sweet sweet boy my heart is physically breaking from loosing you. Mommy doesn’t feel strong anymore without you, she doesn’t wanna keep going but I know I have to for you. It’s not fair and something I will never ever be able to comprehend which breaks my heart even more, you were perfect, you were everything. Ever since the day I lost you I’ve had to make some of the hardest and worst decisions of my life, one’s I never thought I’d get through and I know that you were there with me every step of the way. Growing you for the past 5 months has been the biggest blessing and honor of my life and I’m so so sorry that it ended so soon. Hearing them say there was no heartbeat was the most gut wrenching feeling in the world..Getting to hold and meet my sweet precious baby boy was a feeling I’ll never forget &’ always long for again, I am so in love with every little detail about you. Oh to hold and kiss my sweet boy one more time. My heart aches. I now know of a mother’s love and I couldn’t be more grateful for that, but now I know of a mothers loss. Greyson Ezekiel you have saved mommy in more ways than you could imagine, you will always be my baby boy, my first love, my reason. Mommy loves you more than words. You came into this world on June 30th, 2024 @6:18pm &’ you also left this world on June 30th, 2024 saying hello and then saying good not even 24hours later was the worst thing I’ve ever had to do in my life. I don’t even know how to carry on but i know I have to for you. I never in my life thought I’d be having to make the decisions/choices I’m making right now at 20 years old. On top of everything going on and just struggling to survive everyday, and still healing from giving birth to my sweet sweet boy. I have to find a way to come up with funeral expenses, medical tests &’ autopsy cost as well so I can give my sweet boy everything that he deserves. I never would want to have to reach out for money from anybody and trust me it’s hard enough but it’s all very expensive and I just don’t have it right now. My family and I thought maybe we’d try and set up a GoFundMe to help with expenses, please do not feel obligated to give your money, I will appreciate quite literally anything I receive. I hate to have to come on here about money so soon, they just give you almost no time.

Thank you to everyone in advance, your helping my son get what he deserves and that means the world to me.