Hi all,

Thank you for helping me get to November. I don’t particularly know how else to begin making my case for you to help me survive to December, due to nothing really fundamentally changing with my circumstances, and everything else always increasingly getting worse for everyone else.

I think I’m ready to accept defeat, and truly just continue to exist month-to-month for my cat’s sake than my own. We’ve lost the same exact people the last 12+ years of his life (his mom, his brothers, my dad, my mom), and I’d rather not be the last/next one on that list for him. Not that I have anything else to live for, or to look forward to in my life.

On a more positive note, because of talking through the above last week, you all helped me get some leeway to head into November. I’m now through my electric bill’s payment plan, or on budget billing (gas), so the worst besides rent is just grocery costs, and internet/cell bills. The latter of which I’m working on.

Like always, anything I can think of to say feels like it wouldn’t rightfully convey how thankful I am every day/week/month for your help in keeping me (and Pooh, of course) alive.

November’s costs, by due date:

Rent: $1175, on the 1st. Currently have $498.23.

Need $677 for the full amount, $89.27 to pay the first half.

Electric bill: $99 on the 6th.

$63 will be what it’ll be going forward on budget billing (way less than it’s been in the past during fall/winter).

Pooh vet appointment: $320, before the 17th (2nd week of November).

$180 from October plus this. Hopefully raised sooner than later, since Thanksgiving and holiday appointments are probably filling up now.

Internet bill: $226.94, on the 17th.

I thought I would be good to go after I paid my internet bill last week, but instead I finally see/realize that my rate went up from about $100 to $160 starting in July (amongst all of the late and junk fees then) because I hit the 3rd year of being with my ISP. And since I paid late, I got hit with a $40 fee on top of everything else.

With the help of a friend, I’m calling this week to complain/get my bill back down to a “more normal” amount, hopefully for December’s bill.

Gas bill: $92ish, around the 21st (not yet posted).

2nd of 4 bills with payment plan amount ($52) added to the amount. $52 + 40ish= $92ish again

Groceries: $200

“Wiggle Room”: $185

aka “Not have sudden debts from amazon prime or needing to buy toothpaste or soap and that ruining my account for a few days, also would like to buy a cupcake or something for my birthday, and round numbers are easier to ask for”

TOTAL: $1800

Again, thank you for helping Pooh and I out again. I hate having to ask for help constantly, but that doesn’t mean I don’t appreciate any kind of help I have been able to get. I truly don't know what makes me worthy of your help.