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"Art is my way to escape reality and daily hassle, entering a whole new world by Imagination you didn't know existed. What is real for you."

Started this gofundme I think february 2026 for my music, yes it was a success... or it went beyond my expectations big time, I didn't expect anything from it. I remember even with €200 I would be very happy and grateful. So first of all I am always grateful for this experience. It did helped me in the short term to make some investments, I used €1000 for my music so far, en the rest to survive. Because after the start of gofundme, I was struck by lightning, I lost all you could possibly imagine...


I live rent free off grid yes in exchange of garden chores. First this owner don't allow me to have an address, so I can build nothing up and can't arrange nothing ...

I live here now 1 year, the first 2 weeks on the sofa on the porch, the first 7 months without electricity till she put solar panels. I have no running water for the whole time I am here, only once a week, where I feel 8 liter bottles for the rest of the week.

The police seized my car, due to an invalid license plate from Belgium, so I lost all my garden work here. I had build a pretty big network of 30 gardens around in a short period of time. All gone. Stuff like that.
I live off-grid, so 1 hour from the supermarket and center by foot. Luckily a good friend gave me an e-bike.

I do am grateful the people who have helped me where they can, even they soothe blisters only temporarily.


As ironic as it sounds, all is stripped away from me, except my PC and my microphone. Meaning I can continue making music, rap vocals whatever you want to call it ...

I sign up for many online ai and remote customer service work, haven't been accepted once yet .

So I am living with a huge 20K debt as well in the Netherlands where I come from and now I am stuck here ...

All that is left are my pets, me and a Dream ///

Really Necessary to Get back on my feet:

  • Housing 1000
  • Car 1500
  • Bills 400
  • Music Release 1000



At one hand I am hurt yes, I don't like this. Not to speak about the hot summer 2026, the hottest I have ever experience, 44 °C degrees celsius. Under a metal corrugated sheet roof only, what gets super hot . I really had to survive and live in a livin' sauna and oven, no fun at all!

Yes some days, I am discouraged, sad and don't feel good.

But I will never give up, I know everything has a reason somehow, I need to get stronger, better or smarter .

I put 1000 euro for the music if you let me, even I can understand the basics are more important. Those are the foundation, but if I may, I could release an album for the songs I been recording during these times. Even without the music still need 2900 to get back on my feet again. As the 1400 donated so far is already gone, I received that before things started to happen. I have no savings at all, nothing. I don't want to borrow any more, yes sometimes I don't see a way out neither.


After all I have done so far. Don't get me wrong. I sold my apartment in 2020 and invested all in a dream. Sustainable clothing line and webshop, making the biggest beginners fault, "More expenses than you earn". I lost all my money, I started to work for a company, knocking door to door solar panel leads. They went bankrupt and I lived in Belgium at the moment. I lost it all, they put me on the street. Try to find a job in Belgium when it is already difficult in Holland. That is why I went to Spain, I sold all my belongings, found the cheapest chalet, just to make music. When all my money dried up, I even did 2 months volunteering, meaning you get a room and food, for 30 hours of work a week. That was slavery.

Also my first cat is missing for 1 year, and my heart breaks every day just thinking about it. She was my heart and all. I do have still 3 cats and a dog since the end of 2025. Plus 2 dogs that are mostly in my garden, I take care off.

Yes I am a dreamer, I am sensitive, I tried in the past many businesses, I had 1000's of airbnb guest when I still had my apartment, I sold new and second hand products, my own jewelry and clothing line, I buried more than 10 friends, moved over 20 times by now, lived in 4 countries. I am not happy, I imagined and visualised my life, way differently by now. I still stay strong, I will never give up. I still believe in my own heart and dream, and all that happens makes you stronger when it doesn't kill you. I am unkillable, unbeatable and unbreakable.

All that covered in my music, feel the realness, energy, raw and uncut, true story, pure. Like no other. I will never stop or quit.

-1- Alain
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