Gender Affirming Top Surgery for Azia

Hi! My name is Azia and I have hated my boobs since they started growing. I have been out as non-binary since I was 21 and have been on the waitlist for the NHS gender clinic for 2 years. I can't wait any longer. The gender dysphoria I feel every day is too much and I need to get surgery so I can feel like the person I am inside on the outside too. The image above is the most gender euphoric picture I have ever taken of myself. I want to be able to look like this every day.

I've always felt wrong in this body. I was made to wear skirts and dresses as a child and I thought I had to like it because "you're a girl, you're meant to wear dresses." It never felt right, never felt like me. I started going by Azia when I was 16. Mostly as a joke to begin with, it turned into me, the person I wanted to be.

I first heard the term non-binary at 20 years old and felt like I had found a piece of myself. I came out as enby and legally changed my name to match this new person I was discovering. But there was still the issue of my body. I love most of it, there's so much to love about it. But it's incomplete.

I have spent so long dreaming of having a flat chest. I've bruised myself wearing binders, spent days in agony because of them, I even tried to take matters into my own hands and remove my breasts myself, the scars haunt me. Now I know I need to do something about it, the right thing.

I have no idea the exact amount it's going to cost to get top surgery privately but I know it's a lot, an amount I could never afford alone. So I come to you humbly asking if you have anything to give, please help me create the body I was meant to have. If you can't donate, could you please do me a massive favour and share this page? If you would like to support me but want to get something out of it too, check out my website where you can buy my crochet creations. Profits from these sales are also going towards my surgery. www.starialte.com

How will the funds be used?

The initial consultation is £200-£300 so once that is raised, I will book that. After that, I will be able to confirm the amount for the surgery itself. Anything that is donated will be put towards the surgery and recovery. If anything is left over, it will be passed on to the next person needing help to be themselves.

Also, while I have loved the name Azia, I want to mark the new me with a new name. Azia may remain a middle name but I need something more masculine to reflect me. If you have any suggestions that would fit me, send them my way!

Thank you for taking the time to read my story and for giving if you can.