Help mandy get back up

Hello! It's me mandy!

Thank you in advance for reading my letter

Alot of you don't know, some of you do ,

That I injured my knee the beginning of September. I stepped into a curb drain that was uncovered in a Burger King parking lot. It was dark. I didn't see it coming. Someone must have done maintenance to it and forgot to put the grate back on. I fell about 3.5 feet down, my left leg taking ALL the impact. I tore cartilage and meniscus, Fractured my knee cap, caused a "kissing" contusion ( where the tibia and femur hit each other and causes splintering and bruising) , my acl is gone, and I have a lot of fluid in the joint. My hip and ankle have hurt for a month from the impact and over extending.

This has turned my whole world upside-down. 

I was just starting out at a new job that I loved. In a field that im passionate about. I was starting to feel like I was "getting ahead" and Life was going good.

Then.. life throws you curve balls and you have to adapt and cope.

Everything happens for a reason, right? I'm trying to find the silver lining.

My knee Surgery is scheduled October 21st. Only 2 weeks away

I'm scared. Real scared, I'm not going to lie. I'm shaking and on the verge of tears just thinking about it.

Acl replacement , meniscectomy, cleaning up the joint from bone fragments, fluid, and any arthritis. 

This surgery is going to set me back 8 to 12 months full recovery. Aprox 3 months ZERO weight bearing and then I must take it easy from 3 to 8 months .  It takes time for your body to accept an allograft.

I'm a single mom , i have no family around, (just the friends I'm lucky enough to have that are like family)

I have 2 boys (both have birthdays coming up ) , my work ethic is strong. I like to do things. Im active, I like to work!! I enjoy taking care of my family . But I'm not going to be able to work for a while. 4 to 6 months or more . Not only am I going to go crazy from not being able to do much , I also need help in the mean time. Anyone who knows me knows how HARD THAT IS FOR ME TO SAY . "I need help." It's probably one of the biggest things I'm scared of, it's up there with my fear of spiders . I just dont like the feeling.

I'm taking a step out of my comfort zone.  "Everyone needs help sometimes, and that's ok!" I'm trying to drill it in my head.

I'm doing all I can to prepare. I'm meal prepping, I'm doing odd jobs that don't require alot of walking, im trying to make sure I have some help getting the kids where they need to go for a while , im trying to mentally prepare them as well, im trying to get my ducks in a row and im calling in for back up.

MAN(dy) down..

I need to be able to pay bills and take care of the boys while I recover..

A prayer, a donation, a hug, a share , or simply checking on me means the world to me and I truly appreciate you. Anything helps

Thanks again for reading.

With love,

Mandy