Support Needed for Mental Health Recovery

Hello all…this is not something I wanted to do and not something I am proud of, but here it is.

Anyone who knows me or has been following my socials knows I have not been ok for a very long time. I have been fighting to barely keep my head above water, and EVERY TIME I’m starting to do better/things are going well, something horrible happens to drag me back down.

3 years ago I had an amazing year with 6 weeks in LA for a feature, and the start of the Stabby Road podcast. But, the therapist I had been making great progress with wouldn’t work with me on finding another time slot while I was out of town, and I was not about to get up at 5am for therapy on shoot days. When I returned home and asked to start back up with regular sessions, she simply stated “I am not accepting new patients at this time.” Unreal.

Things were ok for a while as I tried to find a new therapist, but in November I had a horrible experience at a convention that shattered my confidence. Without a therapist to help me work through it, coupled with being behind on everything after being across the country for 6 weeks (then another 2 weeks a month later) AND the new podcast (that I had committed to when I was doing well), the current depressive episode I’ve been in started.

I keep hoping I’ll get through it, and I have finally found a new therapist who has been wonderful, but after a recent and very painful breakup, I’m just worn out.

I desperately need to take some time off to focus on my physical and mental health before I have another nervous breakdown, or do even more damage to my body.

I will still be trying to work here and there, but anything anyone could spare to give me some safety/fallback money, would be greatly appreciated.

If you made it this far, thank you for reading and know this was incredibly hard for me to do.