Gabriel Isaac Charlery’s Homegoing

On December 15th I went to my Dr appointment and we put the monitor on as normal. The Dr did not find a heartbeat. She tried acting as everything was ok as she ordered the ultrasound but I knew something was wrong. As soon as I seen the Technician look at the Dr, I looked at the screen to see the flat line. My heart dropped and then all I remember hearing was Im sorry and I couldn’t hear anything after that. Trevor was outside in the car waiting for me, panic and fear was all I felt. I had dreams a week before and I told my cousin I was scared to give birth, even though I did it 5 times before I knew this time would be the hardest birth. I didn’t know why I felt this way soon I will understand. 5:30 on December15th I checked into CMC Manchester to begin what would be one of the hardest journeys in my life. Something I had been waiting for 37 weeks and 2 days. I would be delivering my son, knowing he wasn’t alive. I had the most amazing nurse everything went well with the induction and he was born at 2:27 in the morning. Beautiful! two ears, two eyes, his dads nose, beautiful hair, 10 toes, 10 fingers. So perfect. I held him so tight. I love him so much. He slept in my arms that night and I slept so good. The kids said goodbye that day to him and held him. Unexpectedly we are laying him to rest.