Gabby's Grace
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I'm not asking for money! I just want you to remember the girl with big brown eyes that twinkled with mischief but was full of compassion! Never forget that huge smile that could brighten your dimmest day! Don't let her memory fade! Say her name out loud. Write her name on a card. Hug a stranger and say its for Gabby! Show grace and compassion to someone in need! Please just do it for Gabby!
Below is a snippet of her journey.
On Monday, January 2, 2017 my 10 yr old daughter Teana Gabrielle "Gabby" Douglas, was taken to Gadsden Regional due to complications that we initially associated with the common cold or flu. Gabby had no prior major symptoms other than a small fever accompanied by a cough and sore throat.
Monday morning shortly after being admitted to the local hospital and after being accessed Gabby was immediately taken by ambulance to the Benjamin Russell Children's Hospital in Birmingham. At arrival her condition had deteriorated so she was sedated, placed on a ventilator and tubes placed in her chest to remove excess fluid build up in her lungs. She received 3 blood transfusions. She had a heart rate of 200bpm, oxygen levels in the 70s, and difficulty breathing. Doctors diagnosed her with pnuemonia in both lungs and were completing additional tests as her condition was rapidly declining.
Monday evening her heart and lungs were not responding to treatment due to being in Septic Shock and would need to be placed on Bypass to assist her throughout the night. While the doctors were placing Gabby on Bypass she coded, chest compressions were done for 55 minutes before they were able to get her back, they don't think she was without oxygenated blood for any of that period but was placed on ECMO/Life Support. ECMO is Extracorporeal Membrane Oxygenation which is a technique that provides Gabby both cardiac and respiratory support. Gabby turned 10 years old and celebrated her birthday in the hospital.
Tuesday, January 3rd, Gabby's condition did not improve throughout Monday night, her chest tubes were re-postitioned Tuesday morning, and later had a slight set back that evening. Doctors had one last medication to try as Gabby's body was producing lethal amounts of acid, and after about a half-hour of being on new medication Gabby began showing some improvements in her hands and feet, this was a good sign that amputation wouldn't be necessary.
Wednesday, additional tests were completed. Gabby held steady, she wasn't progressing as the doctors hoped, her blood gas levels were at a 2 with normal being 7(below 6.8 can be fatal). In addition, her left ventricle was not responding to treatment while the right functioned at 23%. Tests found Gabby had the Flu(which she had been vaccinated for), RSV, and Pnuemonia, one right behind the other. Major win for our family as we had no set backs.
Thursday, Gabby's condition remained the same, the focus this date was to increase the fluid amounts being drained from her lungs. Doctors were able to feel her pulse and see her chest move with it. Gabby was later placed on dialysis to help her kidneys in removing the waste and excess fluids from her body.
Friday, Gabby had a great night, they were able to pull more fluid off of her, her pulse was able to be felt in her right foot and the doppler was able to detect it in the left. Her swelling in the eyes had gone down and we were able to see that beautiful almond shape she has. Her lungs are accepting more pressure. Her paralytic has been paused to see how she responds neurologically. At this time we are still unsure of the future functioning of her lungs but we are taking baby steps in the right direction.
Feb 13th 2017
She was tortured for 42 days and I signed off on it! There was a chance of her survival, a very small chance but I grabbed onto that chance and held tight. I feel horrible for the things she endured. Multiple surgeries (more than 5), constant pain, 42 days of being chemically paralyzed with her eyes sutured shut. We all had such high hopes for a miracle but I didnt realize at that time that the miracle had already happened the day that sweet chubby bundle of sass was laid in my arms for the first time.! She wasn't ever meant to stay forever, just a short time.
I pleaded and I begged for them to save her. I held on to her little body while I told her that it wasn't her time and not to leave me. I told her I couldn't live without her and to take me with her. I screamed and whaled because it felt like my heart was ripping open. As I lay with my head by her head I looked at her numbers and they were so low, I knew I needed to give her the peace she needed to finally rest. I told her I knew she was tired and I was so proud of her and that I loved her but I would understand if she needed to let go and that I was right there and not to be scared. I told her I would hold her hand as long as she needed. Reggie told me not to say that to her but he soon saw what I saw and as we both held on to her as tight and as best as we could, with our family at our backs holding on to us, her little heart beat its last time. We held her for her first breath and we held her as she flew away! I can't say that I held it together after because I didn't. I threw things, begged Reggie to bring my baby back, I begged my daddy to bring her back but they couldn't. Im so mad and I want to hate everyone and everything! I feel so conflicted and confused. But I can't let that show because I have a 3 yr old son whose side kick and sister whom he adores is never coming back. When we started packing up our room he said
" are we going home now, are we getting Gabby?"
I told him that Gabby was in heaven like bubba was. "
His response killed me!
"Well lets go get her and go home so she won't miss us"!
We later found out from her records that things didnt play out the way they seemed!
I will post updated records and such just to keep her name and her memory alive! This isn't to raise money for bills, that part is well in the past, its simply a platform so you can experience Gabby's Grace! This will be a work in progress because honestly, Im clueless as to where to start. I want to do something to help others and be able to say it was because of my baby girl! I want everyone in the world to know how truly special she really was! Gabby was something so special and unique and I can't let her memory fade and die away just because of my pleading and begging on social media! My begging UAB to reconsider their decision to not allow my daughter to be transferred from COA to UAB should have never played a role in her life but sadly it did! 2 giant big name hospitals that are connected by a series of crosswalks and share staff decided I was making them look bad and had a meeting amongst admin from both hospitals. Im not sure if the admin told the dr that called us that day to say what she said or if she got chewed out and therefore decided to take matters in her own hands but either way she threatened my daughters care by saying " ADMIN BETWEEN UAB AND HERE AT CHILDRENS FEELS LIKE YOUR FACEBOOK POSTS COULD CAUSE A DISTRACTION IN REGARDS TO GABBY'S CARE"!!! That was Feb. 9th and on Feb 13th without our knowledge or consent that same dr came on rotation and within the hour she made the decision to end my daughter's medical care, deemed resuscitation futile and ordered her ECMO Life support machine to be turned down. This was done so she could slowly pass away. In front of over 20 witnesses these cowardly drs lied to our faces and played it off as if there wasnt anything to be done ! We suffered unimaginable pain and suffering. For almost 2 months I was so consumed with hows and why's and what ifs because how could her heart stop when that machine was doing it for her while her body healed! The reason she was on that machine was to keep her organs going while her body healed so how did that happen? I found out once they released her medical records. They robbed us of making those choices and being able to be at peace! Lies, deceit, and evil! How can you do that to a 10 yr old girl just to prove you are the boss? How could you lie like a coward? You werent the boss that day nor will you ever be! You may have taken the instruments that were helping her away and in doing so killed her but all you accomplished was showing the world how truly pathetic you really are. Yes she is in Heaven and we are ravaged with grief but on judgement day I will be reunited with my precious daughter and you dr death will be held accountable for your lies, your sins, and your deception!
This is a link to listen to the conversation the dr had with my husband when he confronted her about her threats to Gabby. She clearly says they felt we were making them look bad.
https://youtu.be/YKYvWGgx9O0
Below is a snippet of her journey.
On Monday, January 2, 2017 my 10 yr old daughter Teana Gabrielle "Gabby" Douglas, was taken to Gadsden Regional due to complications that we initially associated with the common cold or flu. Gabby had no prior major symptoms other than a small fever accompanied by a cough and sore throat.
Monday morning shortly after being admitted to the local hospital and after being accessed Gabby was immediately taken by ambulance to the Benjamin Russell Children's Hospital in Birmingham. At arrival her condition had deteriorated so she was sedated, placed on a ventilator and tubes placed in her chest to remove excess fluid build up in her lungs. She received 3 blood transfusions. She had a heart rate of 200bpm, oxygen levels in the 70s, and difficulty breathing. Doctors diagnosed her with pnuemonia in both lungs and were completing additional tests as her condition was rapidly declining.
Monday evening her heart and lungs were not responding to treatment due to being in Septic Shock and would need to be placed on Bypass to assist her throughout the night. While the doctors were placing Gabby on Bypass she coded, chest compressions were done for 55 minutes before they were able to get her back, they don't think she was without oxygenated blood for any of that period but was placed on ECMO/Life Support. ECMO is Extracorporeal Membrane Oxygenation which is a technique that provides Gabby both cardiac and respiratory support. Gabby turned 10 years old and celebrated her birthday in the hospital.
Tuesday, January 3rd, Gabby's condition did not improve throughout Monday night, her chest tubes were re-postitioned Tuesday morning, and later had a slight set back that evening. Doctors had one last medication to try as Gabby's body was producing lethal amounts of acid, and after about a half-hour of being on new medication Gabby began showing some improvements in her hands and feet, this was a good sign that amputation wouldn't be necessary.
Wednesday, additional tests were completed. Gabby held steady, she wasn't progressing as the doctors hoped, her blood gas levels were at a 2 with normal being 7(below 6.8 can be fatal). In addition, her left ventricle was not responding to treatment while the right functioned at 23%. Tests found Gabby had the Flu(which she had been vaccinated for), RSV, and Pnuemonia, one right behind the other. Major win for our family as we had no set backs.
Thursday, Gabby's condition remained the same, the focus this date was to increase the fluid amounts being drained from her lungs. Doctors were able to feel her pulse and see her chest move with it. Gabby was later placed on dialysis to help her kidneys in removing the waste and excess fluids from her body.
Friday, Gabby had a great night, they were able to pull more fluid off of her, her pulse was able to be felt in her right foot and the doppler was able to detect it in the left. Her swelling in the eyes had gone down and we were able to see that beautiful almond shape she has. Her lungs are accepting more pressure. Her paralytic has been paused to see how she responds neurologically. At this time we are still unsure of the future functioning of her lungs but we are taking baby steps in the right direction.
Feb 13th 2017
She was tortured for 42 days and I signed off on it! There was a chance of her survival, a very small chance but I grabbed onto that chance and held tight. I feel horrible for the things she endured. Multiple surgeries (more than 5), constant pain, 42 days of being chemically paralyzed with her eyes sutured shut. We all had such high hopes for a miracle but I didnt realize at that time that the miracle had already happened the day that sweet chubby bundle of sass was laid in my arms for the first time.! She wasn't ever meant to stay forever, just a short time.
I pleaded and I begged for them to save her. I held on to her little body while I told her that it wasn't her time and not to leave me. I told her I couldn't live without her and to take me with her. I screamed and whaled because it felt like my heart was ripping open. As I lay with my head by her head I looked at her numbers and they were so low, I knew I needed to give her the peace she needed to finally rest. I told her I knew she was tired and I was so proud of her and that I loved her but I would understand if she needed to let go and that I was right there and not to be scared. I told her I would hold her hand as long as she needed. Reggie told me not to say that to her but he soon saw what I saw and as we both held on to her as tight and as best as we could, with our family at our backs holding on to us, her little heart beat its last time. We held her for her first breath and we held her as she flew away! I can't say that I held it together after because I didn't. I threw things, begged Reggie to bring my baby back, I begged my daddy to bring her back but they couldn't. Im so mad and I want to hate everyone and everything! I feel so conflicted and confused. But I can't let that show because I have a 3 yr old son whose side kick and sister whom he adores is never coming back. When we started packing up our room he said
" are we going home now, are we getting Gabby?"
I told him that Gabby was in heaven like bubba was. "
His response killed me!
"Well lets go get her and go home so she won't miss us"!
We later found out from her records that things didnt play out the way they seemed!
I will post updated records and such just to keep her name and her memory alive! This isn't to raise money for bills, that part is well in the past, its simply a platform so you can experience Gabby's Grace! This will be a work in progress because honestly, Im clueless as to where to start. I want to do something to help others and be able to say it was because of my baby girl! I want everyone in the world to know how truly special she really was! Gabby was something so special and unique and I can't let her memory fade and die away just because of my pleading and begging on social media! My begging UAB to reconsider their decision to not allow my daughter to be transferred from COA to UAB should have never played a role in her life but sadly it did! 2 giant big name hospitals that are connected by a series of crosswalks and share staff decided I was making them look bad and had a meeting amongst admin from both hospitals. Im not sure if the admin told the dr that called us that day to say what she said or if she got chewed out and therefore decided to take matters in her own hands but either way she threatened my daughters care by saying " ADMIN BETWEEN UAB AND HERE AT CHILDRENS FEELS LIKE YOUR FACEBOOK POSTS COULD CAUSE A DISTRACTION IN REGARDS TO GABBY'S CARE"!!! That was Feb. 9th and on Feb 13th without our knowledge or consent that same dr came on rotation and within the hour she made the decision to end my daughter's medical care, deemed resuscitation futile and ordered her ECMO Life support machine to be turned down. This was done so she could slowly pass away. In front of over 20 witnesses these cowardly drs lied to our faces and played it off as if there wasnt anything to be done ! We suffered unimaginable pain and suffering. For almost 2 months I was so consumed with hows and why's and what ifs because how could her heart stop when that machine was doing it for her while her body healed! The reason she was on that machine was to keep her organs going while her body healed so how did that happen? I found out once they released her medical records. They robbed us of making those choices and being able to be at peace! Lies, deceit, and evil! How can you do that to a 10 yr old girl just to prove you are the boss? How could you lie like a coward? You werent the boss that day nor will you ever be! You may have taken the instruments that were helping her away and in doing so killed her but all you accomplished was showing the world how truly pathetic you really are. Yes she is in Heaven and we are ravaged with grief but on judgement day I will be reunited with my precious daughter and you dr death will be held accountable for your lies, your sins, and your deception!
This is a link to listen to the conversation the dr had with my husband when he confronted her about her threats to Gabby. She clearly says they felt we were making them look bad.
https://youtu.be/YKYvWGgx9O0
Organizer
Carrie Harden
Organizer
Gadsden, AL