Help Josh Not Be Homeless

Depressed, Anxious, Suicidal, Borderline Personality Disorder. I was not meant for the unfairness of life, but I was forced into this rotten, miserable world against my will and now I have to toil away in pain in order to justify an existence I never wanted.

In August 2023 I had a mental breakdown and lost my job after two months of working. Since graduating from university in 2018 I have not been able to hold onto a job for more than a few months at a time as I find everything about life to be rather painful and pointless and I get too paralyzed by fear and sadness to do anything. A month ago New York denied me for social security disability benefits even though I suffer insurmountably from a BPD addled brain, which I consider to be a full disability.

People say that I must not give up and that I must try to get better. After years of intensive therapy without any alleviation of symptoms I realize that this is futile. But I'm currently looking for more work even though I know I will fail again. This is why I am now asking for help from you. I'm too delicate and fragile to be homeless. If I cannot pay the rent this month I face eviction and I will have to do something drastic to end my pain.