Funeral Expenses for Josh Thornsberry

*Reach out to someone tonight, you never know who may need it.*

Sunday, Aug. 28th, we discovered that Josh took his own life. 

My name is Christina Maxlow (Thornsberry), Josh Thornsberry’s youngest sister. In October of 2021, Josh came to live with me after separating from his wife. In January, he moved into his own house, in the same mobile home park that we live in. He seemed to be doing well starting his new life. He would see his 3 boys whenever possible, he would still talk with his wife as they kept a good relationship for the kids. He would hang out with me and Melissa (sister) as much as possible since we all lived so close now. He really seemed to be doing well. 

On Sunday 8/28, 18 days after his 42nd birthday, our Mom texted me to see if we had heard from him. I texted him but his phone was off so Adam and I went across the park to check on him. After knocking for a while, I used the spare key he gave me to enter. Right by the door was a note that said “Don’t come in. Call 911. I’m sorry”. 

There are so many what ifs going through all of our heads right now. He had struggled with anxiety and depression for a long time. To know he was in this much pain and we weren’t able to help us absolutely crushing us. 

I hate having to ask for help, but I will do anything for my big brother. As you can imagine, we were not prepared for this in any way. We desperately need help with funds to give him the funeral and celebration of life that he deserves. I just wish he would have realized how much love he deserved while he was still here. 

We love you big brother. And miss you more than words can say. 

Any and all remaining funds will be donated to the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention. 

FADE TO BLACK

Metallica

Life, it seems, will fade away 

Drifting further, every day 

Getting lost within myself 

Nothing matters, no one else 

I have lost the will to live 

Simply nothing more to give 

There is nothing more for me 

Need the end to set me free 

Things not what they used to be 

Missing one inside of me 

Deathly loss, this can't be real 

I cannot stand this hell I feel 

Emptiness is filling me 

To the point of agony 

Growing darkness, taking dawn 

I was me, but now he's gone 

No one but me 

Can save myself 

But it's too late 

Now I can't think 

Think why I should even try 

Yesterday seems as though 

It never existed 

Death greets me warm 

Now I will just say goodbye 

Bye...

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