Fund Evan's Life-Changing Top Surgery

Evan Djurosovich is organizing this fundraiser.

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My name is Evan.

When I first came out as trans when I was 15 it was with the knowledge and expectation that things would be difficult for me. I didn’t fully understand how that would manifest in my life over time but it became immediately clear when I became the victim of prolonged harassment and transphobic abuse from one of my peers resulting in me taking out an EPO. At that point the damage had already been done and my mental health struggled without necessary supports for both me in my transition and the PTSD I was living with. I dropped out of high school as a result and, even after obtaining my GED, this significantly disadvantaged me when pursuing opportunities.

For a long time I went back into the closet. I was confident I wasn’t cis but presenting myself femininely as a nonbinary person was a camouflage after the immense amount of pain I experienced in trying to assert my gender and personhood. It felt safer to hide. I got married and, while still presenting as nonbinary, the subsequent domestic violence I experienced was often targeted at me related to my gender. It was complex and terrifying and I am lucky to have survived the hell I was put through while I was married. Nonetheless, it was another nail in the coffin of asserting my gender.

I learned repeatedly that who I am needed to remain hidden for me to be safe. It setback my transition significantly without access or safety to start HRT, change my name, or fully realize who I was. For a long time I didn't believe it was possible for me to exist in the world as a transmasculine person. I resigned myself to a lack of happiness in myself and my body.

Now, at 27 years old, I feel nothing but confidence in myself and my identity. I have finally started testosterone and have a community of people who love and respect me and have uplifted me through the many phases of my self-understanding to get to this point. I have gone through 4 years of therapy with a highly accredited trauma therapist who has also uplifted and believed in me in my transition. All of this has enabled me to understand the complexity of my relationship to being trans and come to an acceptance of myself that challenged all previous notions of feeling I have to remain hidden.

The next step for me, and a step I have always aspired to, is top surgery. My chest dysphoria has always been a major aspect of my experience being trans that has held me back from actualizing a lot of my goals. Even when I went back into the closet it was something I contemplated. I thought about a reduction but this doesn’t address the real issue which is that I don’t want breasts at all. At my lowest points where life has felt unlivable, this has often been something that comes up for me. This surgery is not just for my identity and experience of self it’s also for my health and wellbeing after navigating dysphoria related to it since I hit puberty.

I have already had a consultation and been quoted on a price estimate. With the help from my dad I plan to finance the cost of surgery but still need money for the deposit which is $2,521.95 and is needed within a 2 month window to guarantee my spot for surgery.