Fueneral Arrangments for my brother Jeffrey Fabian

My heart breaks into pieces writing this in disbelief that I have to create a godundme for my own brother. My childhood partner, my best friend for life. But let me tell you how amazing My bother Jeffrey Fabian such an amazing person that was so full of life and adventure. I say is because he forever will be. he would make anyone's day better with his contagious smile and his wholesome laugh. He has a heart of gold, he would go out of his way to help anyone in need.  He was always there for me through everything we went through it together. My best friend I loved our long talks about life about our futures. As I read through every single memory his friends and those who knew him have written about him it brings tears to my eyes, light and happiness through this pain. Its so wholesome to read he brought so much light and joy to so many people. It brings love to my heart knowing he was so loved by everyone..so many. Those memories are now shared within my heart. His dreams, aspirations, goals he talked to me and my younger brother so much about always made me so proud and so estatic for him. I knew he could do anything he wanted in this world. I was the most extremely proud sister in the world!!! And I pray that he knows that. i pray that he knows how much my little brother and I are proud and love him so much so deeply. he accomplished so much every single milestone he got over he was so motivating to me. He always was so protective of me his only sister and I’m so grateful he is my protector you’re my blessing baby brother. I always wanted to make sure i protected you from anything and everything like an annoying sister at that time but with so much love and you knew that. I always wanted the ultimate best for you because it’s what you deserve and beyond that. He wanted to be an astronomer he was studying astronomy he loved space, the moon the stars the galaxy it was his passion. I remember when He would take out his telescope and Have us look at the moon and align the stars. Out last trip together was to DODGERS spring training AZ our very first one together. my best memory that I keep repeating in my head is when he caught his first fly ball at the Stadium he dived and slid in between a pile of 5 and 6year olds haha and with a beer in his hand that he never let go he kept it up in the air haha that was just who he was so determined for it his sweater drenched in spilled beer but he caught his baseball he was so excited with the biggest smile on his face. He finally caught his baseball.he also wasn’t so in love with his bbq burger with blue cheese French fries and his IPA he said it was the best burger he ever had! I was so happy he was happy I loved to see him like that. Experiencing new thing so and loving them. I always remember your high school memories when I made banners for your games and we came out to support you making sure you had an amazing senior year. I loved watching you play baseball as a little one it was such a huge passion you where the baddest catcher ever so good and talented it made me so happy! He loved cars like LOVED them. It was always Tesla and his Z. Ever since he worked for Tesla he was amazed and learned everything he could about their cars he loved his job. He would tell me all the details I always told him let’s get one and share it, i know what i know because of him he was my teacher and guide. He was also so determined to fix his Z up so he can be on the road with his friends he loved to ride and cruise with them. They made him happy I’m grateful to his friends for taking care of my baby boy for showing him love and being there for him. I vow to finish your project on the Z in your honor brother. I promise you I will ride the canyons in your Z when you tell me it’s my time to do so. The canyons was his safe place, the irony. A place he felt at ease and loved. As I'm writing this my heart is heavy and wishing this wasn't true wishing and praying it is a nightmare i will wake up from. I will always keep playing Mac, Logic and Kid Cudi for you! You’re top favorite artist. I remember taking you to your very first concert at such a young age it was Kid Cudi @ the Nokia theater at that time we bought outside tickets and they where vip but we were too young couldn’t get to the bar haha but so close to the stage. You’re face was so lit up you singing your heart out to Cudi I was so happy you loved it. That was the first time you ever smell weed too lol I remember you always reminded me of that. I always loved our coffee trips this man loves cold brew so much his favorite from Dunkin donuts was always the cold brew with vanilla swirl and creamer. So yum! I love you mi corazón my baby my love my everything. As I write this all; My family and I are broken and shattered without our Jeffrey. My baby brother is now resting in heaven in space in the galaxy in the stars.  On a grand adventure I’m sure. Reunited with my great grandmother and Mac.
as I write this with so much pain in my heart wishing and praying this wasn’t real We are asking for your help so we can give him the most beautiful proper funeral we can give to him. Any amount you can donate will be deeply appreciated by my family and I. I know jeffrey feels all of your love from above. He will be looking out for us all. My angel I adore you I love you infinitely. Rest in paradise. This isn’t a goodbye it’s a see you later. God please receive my brother in your arms and take care of him for us please. Visit me in my dreams. Give me a sign. Thank you for being the best little big brother to me and Nathan in the world and beyond this underse. I love you. I can continue in paragraphs our whole life story but I’ll talk to you day by day telling you my favorite parts. We will continue your legacy because you’re a LEGEND.