From streets to stability. Leaving a life of abuse....

I'm 46 years old. I have 3 amazing adult sons. Due to the situations I've been dealing with, I haven't seen them for quite some time. I've been going through domestic abuse, both physical and emotional/mental. I would try to leave, or sometimes he would make a reason to fight with me, then kick me out. I was forced to live on the streets many times. He would throw away all my belongings. This would include my clothes, shoes, makeup, even toothbrush, toothpaste, soap, shampoo, any pictures or memorabilia, things I can't replace. He would call me, bring me back in, and repeat the same thing over and over again because I would always give in. One reason is because I love him so much, or I did. Mainly, I don't want to be on the street. It's hard and scary. I've slept in the woods, I've slept in parks, I've slept by dumpsters, behind buildings. I've been outside during freezing rain and snow, and I've gone through 110° temperatures. Sometimes I have no way to eat or anything to drink. No clean clothes, no way to shower sometimes. And I'm currently homeless again.

I figure if I can get enough money to get a cheap car, that I would have no problem getting another job. That's easy for me. If I had a vehicle I could at least sleep in, I would feel safe and I wouldn't be outdoors. Once I start working and getting money, I can live in a hotel and save money until I can get a small apartment. I just need a chance to get on my feet. I just mentally cannot handle being homeless. It's been going on too long and it's just too much.