Former truck Driver in need help.

Hello, my name is Robert. I was a truck driver for almost 20 years. Never had any accidents and only 1 ticket. I missed so many holidays and birthdays. But I enjoyed it so much. But that was all taking from me cause I've had to had 8 back surgeries. And 4 since last August. Still can't work and got turned down for SSI. Please if you can just looking for some help. It's got so bad I had to check in at behavioral health twice. Anything helps thank you and God bless.