In 2016 I met a man in the most unconventional situation and in a place most woman would stay away from. Just friends, it’s all I needed or wanted from anyone at that point in my life. I was trying to find myself, be a better version of myself for me and my kids. As difficult as it was he was so consistent and so persistent. He became my best friend. We stayed on the phone for hours we laughed, we joked, we cried, we shared dreams together we got to know each other in so many ways on so many levels. A year and a half in and I married him, I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. I knew there was nothing that could come between us and the situation was only temporary. I knew he was the one, my soulmate, the one that would change my life and worth the wait. He made me smile on days that seemed the worse, he made me happy on days I couldn’t talk, he brightened days that seemed to have no light most of all he made me feel love that I’ve never felt. Two and a half years I patiently or maybe some days impatiently waited for him.

In 2018 I finally got to bring him home and share a wonderful life together, not perfect but closer to it than I had ever been. His love for me was even more felt spending every day together. It felt so right being in his arms. I would hear his heart as I lay on his chest as if it was beating just for me. He loved our children just as much, his relationship with them made me fall even more in love. He was everything and some that he promised inside he would be on the outside. We accomplished so much together, been so many places and met so many people, we were a team and on a mission to conquer the world together. We lost loved ones and gained them too, we stuck together through it all and he would always tell me we will get through it, we always do.

Today I’m not so sure I can get through this. I’m alone, I lost my teammate, my soulmate, my best friend, my light, my laughter, my smile, one of my main reasons for being. I’m in more pain than I’ve been in my life. I don’t know how or if I’m going to make it, everyone says stay strong and I have my kids who need me and I know that. I’m trying my hardest I promise you all but it’s by far a struggle, a battle, and I know so many have went through this and I’m not the only one and I give credit to you all cause I wish this on nobody. I love you Andrew and I know you loved me.

Please help me, help me get through this, help me give my husband the service he deserves. We have helped so many with no expectations and no want or need for anything in return. Today I’m not only asking but begging for emotional support, physical support, and if possible financial support for me and our family.