Hi guys! Crazy I have to do this again due to my health, but I cannot keep going without some help.

I have been battling a severe bout of Diverticulitis over the last 9 years that has left me with an abscess infection in my pelvis now, which has caused my rectum and my sigmoid colon to become inflamed, and swollen (you can feel my colon swelling/spasming just by rubbing my left ass cheek), even can feel it flare up when it is going off. It is beyond painful to the point I cannot walk because swelling of my colon can be felt through the vibrations of each step I take. Adding difficulty, using the restroom to go Number 2 or pass any gas has been a nightmare for me because I developed a stricture as well that has my colon closed. I have not been able to eat due to the frequent urges and flare ups and am very malnourished, dehydrated, tired, no energy and do not sleep at night because the infection continously is aggravating it and it is constantly flaring. On average im able to move for about 5-10 minutes of some sort of walking or work and I have to rest right after to gather my energy and breath.

Since last year October, I have not been able to work for the most part as I am a Personal Trainer/ Strength Coach and everything comes from my hustle. I have spent most of this year 2022 on bed rest and hospital visits. I have not been able to be out, train like I want and cannot train clients due to the amount of pain I am currently in, not being able to teach or demonstrate and I have lost all muscle mass as I cannot eat properly.

This abscess was unfortunately developed during a hospital stay after a suicide attempt November 1st, 2021. Yes. A Suicide attempt and was going to off my head. Because of my mentor Joe I refused to go out in that same fashion. Extremely thankful for my powerlifting/strongman brothers who forced me to check myself in. Little did I know I signed myself up for 72 hour legal hold and was thrown in a psychiatric/ mental ward for the time. During my stay I experienced starvation because the hospital refused to treat me as a patient and not a person who has legitmate illnesses. From the beginning I had a doctor argue with me that I do not have my disease and that I was misdiagnosed when this same doctor is supposed to be evaluating my mental health, nothing of my physcial should have concerned him in any way. I was forced to eat meals I could not eat such as sandwiches, tomatoes, processed meats, nuts, seeds, oatmeals and whole grains. I EVEN GOT RAW CHICKEN SERVED TO ME!! This was Southern Hills in Las Vegas btw, I dont care close that damn facility lol! The hopstial said they cannot accomodate my dietary needs. While dealing with my physical I was attacked twice in there, knocking one dude out and having a 6'3 320lb jamaican throwing cups full of scissors, pencils, cartons of milk at me because I had said something to him about cutting one of the Special Needs women who wasasking for graham crackers.... I had to witness people get pinned down by 4-5 nurses and getting shots in their ass to calm them down, to waking up to one of the patients smiling at me in my sleep and watching me as I woke up. Consistent screaming, talking to themselves at 3 in the morning screaming demons and some more crap.

During my diverticultis attack there, it took the doctor from 8am to 11 pm that night to get me an escorted ride to the emergency room where my pee samples and bloodwork were thrown away infront of me after I was asked to give samples. A CT Scan with no contrast was performed and wasnt even reviewed. I was told to stop lying about my pain because Im trying to get myself out of the 72 hour hold WHICH IS RIDICULOUS!!! Since then that very same pain is now an infected abscess in my pelvis. Yet I was told nothing was wrong with me and was sent back at 3am. Worst experience of my life, from no windows, no clocks, no sense of time, just lost in it. Unaware of what's going on in the outside world. I wish that on no human being ever! How patients were spoken to, treated, how people viewed me, pointed and laughed at me. Spreading the word that Im from a psych hospital and to ignore me. My very own nurse who had to escort me went off on them and told me how can they treat me like this. Its Vegas thats why and its about a check. My doctors were all from africa with african accents, scamming and running peoples insurance up by keeping them longer than the 72 hour hold. If you showed distress or that you were not stable enough to go out they would keep you 14 extra days!!! Again, I wish this on no human!

Since then, its been a slow and painful battle that caused me to deal with that build up of pain until I finally went to the ER to get admitted Mother's Day Weekend. From that stay I was referred to a Colon Doctor. May 25th I was sent to get a colonoscopy and because I had so much swelling and scarring neither the regular camera nor a pediatric camera (used for kids) couldn't even squeeze through so the doctors were never able to see what was going on past that infected part of my colon. The colonsocopy also caused the abscess to return after I had finally gotten relief of some symptoms just a few days prior.

I was then referred to my current doctor and have been getting all the help I can possibly get and extremely thankful for the team handling my situation. They have truly been looking for my best interest and approaching a surgical plan.

Because of the pain though and wanting to run their own labs and tests for their own records and decision making, by my colorectal surgeon, I was admitted at UCSD Medical Center on Jun 13th. They kept me 4 days going through multiple tests, colonoscopy, CT Scans, MRI's, it was discovered, there is an approximately 1.4 x 1.3 x 2.5 cm abscess noted in the cul-de-sac. The infection in the culdesac is located in my pelvis near my bladder and in a pocket of air surrounding my colon. This infection alone has been causing all of my syptoms such as Proctitis and after receiving extensive pain management and antibiotics both IV and orally I have been able to manage for the time being. So far the plan is to allow myself to heal and rid the infection before we discuss the options for surgery.

Many of you remember I was due for a Colon Resection Surgery back in October of 2018 which unfortunately never happened due to continuous cancellations and rescheduling on the doctors end, as well as living in Vegas at the time and having to travel to and from appointments back and forth between Vegas and San Diego became very difficult both energy wise and finncially.

My job at the time needed at least 1-2 months' notice prior to my surgery so that adjustments could be made (covering my portion of work which wasnt needed and was harrased by my supervisor daily telling me to get the surgery done and stop waisting time..... I look back and it was ridiculous I was being forced by a company to have surgery almost as if it was on their time and that I could make everything go away with the snap of a finger). I ended up leaving that shit hole of a disrespectful place but unfortunately, my surgery that had me covered and was going to be performed under Kaiser, was no longer covering me because I had turned 26 and thats the age when parental coverage ends for medical insurance. So I was never able to follow up with the very doctor who possbily could've prevented all that is currently going on.

Throw in Covid completely 2020-2021 leaving me entirely on my own dealing with my disease and unable to get the help I needed. Unfortunately, my illness is now the worst and most painful it has possibly been.

The surgery can go a few ways. I can heal from my abscess and allow swelling to go down enough that they can remove the infected part of sigmoid colon/ rectum and possibly reattach them only requiring one surgery. The other option woud be a Colostomy bag, but mine would sit much lower giving me much more regular stools and a little easier to deal with. This usually requires a second surgery to reattach your colon and rectum together after time has allowed the body to heal itself. It is a very difficult and painful surgery when having to do things that way. And just in general would have to adjsut my new life to shitting in a bag vs the other end like you all do. And doing it for a temporary fix while then having to learn how to use my bowels again after reattachtment. The process is long and daunting but it must be done!

Thats is why I am putting it all out there and asking you all for help. I never ask for more than what I am needing because I can do for myself and have been doing for myself as best I have been able to manage. Again, I am extremly tired at this point, my will to continue fighting this batle is at its end, not in terms of mental health but just dealing with this disease for 9 years!!!

I am trying to raise just $5,000. This money is specifically going to my sons needs, any traveling expenses and bills I need to cover during my recovery. This is mainly also for school as im going back pursuing a degree in Kinesiology to further my skillset as a Coach and making son proud. Mostly, I have to be online as I am in no position currently to be there in person. This money will be used to assist me in getting all my school supplies such as an iPad Pro for all my note taking and studying, books, anything really needed. This money is not meant for splurging or enjoyment. This money along with assisstance from Financial Aid will allow me to get through the rest of this year and semester with much less stress knowing I can focus on recovering. I am trying to get surgery done prior to school starting but I cannot make that guarantee and have to prepare to be able to make adjustments while still healing studying, training, and being a father.

Any and all donations no matter how big or small is greatly appreciated. I know I've asked for help before and because of you all I was able to make it through. Im asking for that help again. Thank you guys!