Finding Rae Rae's Way Home #findingraerae

Hi! My name is Rachel and I went on a Trip. I'm currently on a spiritual journey of self discovery in the form of a solo roadtrip across the country to find and connect to myself. Over the years I have given and given and given to others. I bet a lot of people can relate to this. I GIVE to "My People," my family, my friends, colleagues, and also strangers. I even made a career out of giving and caring as an ICU Nurse. I am an Empath, and I recently realized that I have given so much to others that I left myself depleted. I took this trip as a personal timeout to pour into myself. Fill my own cup.

Now I'm going to be vulnerable and honest here and let you know that there are people in my life that are not happy that I be pulled my energy back to myself at this time. I'm talking BIG MAD. This act of self love has revealed their true colors towards me and all of those colors are Dark. These people included my immediate family, especially my father, my soon to be ex-husband, and even some of my closest friends. The discovery of how deep this betrayal goes is still unknown to me, but I'm actively putting the pieces together to solve this puzzle.

I have excellent credit and pay my bills on time. Up until recently I had two part-time nursing jobs. I recently resigned from both due to extreme burnout after working full time through the Covid pandemic. (Which I lost my mother to in July of 2021. The only other GoFundMe I have ever done was to pay for the costs of her funeral expenses and medical bills.) For the past 6-9 months, I was having daily panic attacks, but only on the days I was scheduled to work. My Body was telling me that I needed to take a break. Time to heal. I HAD to leave those positions to save myself from the physical and mental toll it was taking against me.

So at this point, I am half way across the country, and as crazy as this may sound, these not very nice people in my life have:

1. Stolen my identity and taken out credit cards in my name that I knew nothing about until recently.

2. Attempted to involve me in an online money laundering scheme that I reported to the local police and the FBI. Because of this ongoing investigation, my bank accounts have been locked.

3. Reported ME for credit card fraud/theft, and this has resulted my credit cards to be suspended/locked. THIS PART IS IMPORTANT because this part didn't happen till I was already halfway across the country. This last part was done to try to hurt me for taking this time to myself to grow, to heal from the past traumas that THEY inflicted on me. There is no way that this part was not intended to ruin my self discovery trip and leave me literally stranded.

(Side note: Not that it's anyone's business, but I'm an open book, I have been in therapy since my mom passed in 2021. I have ACTIVELY been putting in YEARS of hard work to heal from my immensely deep grief over her death, what these not nice people did to me in my past and present, and from My Own struggles and shortcomings. It was so bad that I ALMOST removed myself from this world. On three distinct occasions to be exact, but I could never go through with it. My love for my son is the only reason I'm still on this planet. I am currently of VERY Sound Mind due to all the therapy, self reflection, and shadow work that I have done over the past 5 years. I am in a good space mentally and have NO DESIRE, THOUGHTS, or PLAN to harm myself, or others for that matter.)

All that to say, I am currently half a country away from home and I AM STUCK! I drove here (for the time to reflect, do music theory, and be with myself for the first time in a very long time) and because of the actions of these not very nice people, I am quite literally stuck here. I am a Giver, not a Taker. If you were to talk to any of the many people in my life that are genuine and who have an honest relationship with me, they would tell you that I will quite literally give a stranger the shirt off my back if they needed it. I have always HAD to be very independent and it is very very hard for me to ask for help, but I need HELP! I need financial assistance to make it back home. I HAVE TO MAKE IT HOME BY September 8th for my baby boy's 9th birthday. I made a Promise to him that I would, and I'll be damned if I break a promise to him. Sometimes Your Word is LITERALLY the only thing that you have. You see where I'm going here? I'm currently in a position where only my past words and actions, My Reputation, can save me.

I'm not asking for a lot. Just enough money for gas and a night in a hotel to rest, so I can make it back home. Back home so I can keep My Word, that Promise, to my sweet baby boy. Back Home so I can pick up the pieces of a life that was shattered by those not very nice people, get a divorce and MOVE ON to brighter days.

If you can, please, help me get back home.

Thank you in advance from the bottom of my heart. I PROMISE to Pay it Forward once I'm able, and I ALWAYS keep my promises.

Not that anyone cares, but I'm writing a book about this entire experience, and I'll be sharing it it's and pieces on my social media. You can come along with me on My Journey at the following accounts:

-Facebook: Rachel Rosser

-Instagram: @raeraerosser

-TikTok: @RachelRosser4

These are my ONLY accounts. If you find others out on the internet, which I'm highly suspicious you might, they are NOT me. There is only ONE ME, and I'm taking back My Name, My Identity, and My Reputation. Please, help me rise.

Love and Light,

Rachel Rosser‍