FFS, Bottom Surgery, other feminization procedures

Hi,

My name is Violet and I am a 22 year old transgender woman from AZ. I am facing the same struggles as many of my fellow trans community members such as body dismoephia. I am not asking for money because I want to enhance my looks or for narcissistic reasons. I face so much anger towards myself because of the way I look and what is inbetween my legs even though I was born a certain way and it was out of my control. I want to live the life I was always meant to live. I hope I can have help with that as I recently got out of homelessness as of earlier this year and I have no way to pay for gender affirming surgeries and I am fearful when I am able to pay it will be decades down the line and it makes me afraid to think about waiting so long. I want to be my true self and I try every day so hard to pretend like my manhood is not there to combat my dysmorphia or feeling like I am in a body that I don't belong in. I look at my face and think "this is not me". I want to try to have the people who are not transgender understand the emotions and feelings I am going through and how much turmoil it is causing me in my everyday life. Imagine waking up everyday knowing that everyone who sees you sees you as something you are not, no matter how hard you try you still get looks of disgust and disapproval. It is very hard to explain but feminizing my body, having just started estrogen injections, is going to be a long road and I just hope there are generous people willing to help a transgender such as myself. I need these operations to be my true self and it is not a want, it is something that goes through my mind 24 7 and I am working so hard every single day to pay bills and save every extra dollar. I feel like I am living in a strangers body and I fear my life will end before I get to experience life the way I always was meant to. This is not about sex or anything like that, I want to do this for me, just like how i tuck and wear makeup every day so I feel better and more comfortable in my own skin. Thank you for taking your time to read my statement and I hope my few words did not displeasure you in any way. Please reach out to me if you would like to know more about me or just talk.

-Violet :)