please help me bury my brother

My brother joeseph suriani passed away on 6/14/18

Most people new my brother as the big larger then life character.
He had his own way of running headfirst into life.
he was as strong headed as they come.
but he was also a really funny guy.a guy that would bend over backwards to help a friend in need.
and the last person i ever thought would pass away.
im still in a state of shock

He was a former marine,he worked hard his entire life always trying to do his best.he passed away in his sleep.He had some health problems such as sleep Apia and high cholesterol and blood clots in his legs from injurys he sustained while serving in the military. 
his death comes just a little over a year from my mother passing and his loss is devastating.

burying a parent is the hardest ordeal ive had to ever go though.
and it took every penny we had to do it.
i cant even begin to deal with burying my brother.....
i still havent been able to afford my mothers headstone and i feel terrible about it.right now im faced with  having him cremated with no service because its all i can afford....he deserved more.

any help is appreciated........i just dont know how to even cope with this loss..