Father with fulltime government job can't make it

Hello my name is Aaron Lewis. I am ashamed to admit that having a full-time job working as a county employee and I can't make ends meet I've begged and pleaded with my children's mother to change the court order. The only thing that she is willing to change is the amount of time I get to spend with my daughters and of course that is the only lesson the amount of time I get with them. Which isn't fair for my girls or six and eight years old. The courts say it is important for both parents to be involved but they're rulings don't often reflect this. It only shows that one will be the caretaker and gets the majority of the time with the children and the other is the money back who only gets a small portion of time spent with the children well it really becomes unfair is in the manner of how each parent lives. And since during the custody battle that went on for over a year and a half through covid I paid for an attorney to fight for what was best and my daughter's interest. And since it went on for so long I could no longer afford to pay the attorney going to trial without one. And during that time I paid for the attorney I couldn't afford to pay child support at the same time so when the ruling was made that sole custody would go to the mother they also issued back child support for 10 months of partial or not payment due to the fact I was paying for the attorney. Just left me in the hole over $10,000. I haven't missed a payment since but thanks have gotten really tough and it has taken a toll on my mental health. I gave up drinking over five and a half years ago because I wanted to be the best father that I could be I have not had a drink since nor do I plan to. And at this rate I couldn't afford to drink even if I wanted to because I have recently found myself homeless due to my landlord becoming very ill and needing to move a healthcare worker in to where I lived right next door to him. During this time the vehicle I had broke down on me and if I didn't have a vehicle I didn't have a way to work so I purchased a vehicle with a little bit of money I had saved only to find out there be one mechanical issue after another with it so instead of saving up to pay the first last and deposit on a new place to live I've had to keep up on repairing this vehicle which left me homeless I've reached out to everyone I could think of for help/assistance. Hey have some really great friends who have helped me out and it always seemed to come out of nowhere and when I needed it the most but I don't want to keep on asking for help from Friends that I know don't necessarily have it that's why I'm turning to GoFundMe so we're hopefully someone has found themselves in a good enough situation to where they can help people like me. It's embarrassing for me to ask for help because I'm a grown man that works a full-time job and I don't feel like it is right of me but being in the situation that I'm in I have no other choice because it is affecting the time that I do get to spend with my children and having to stay at family or friends house when I have them just doesn't always work out and I start to feel like a burden when I'm probably not. I was raised by a grandmother who couldn't really even afford to raise me but she did anyhow because the one thing that she did have abundance of was love. Had I not been forced to move out of my house I feel very comfortable in saying that I would have been able to save up money to get into a better place in time but being forced out and having one issue after another with the vehicle I had to buy it has been very hard to save up money to get into a place so if you could find it in your heart to either pass this along say a little prayer or donate a little money I would appreciate it greatly to be able to have my own place again where my girls would feel comfortable when they came to stay would mean the world to me. And if you can't do it any of those things that is fine just keep us in your thoughts and know that life can get rough for any of us thank you for your time and I wish you well. In the bottom of my heart thank you. Aaron Lewis