Support King’s Journey to Recovery

Hi! My name is Hector (you may know me as King online). I do freelance art fulltime! Or at least, I've tried to!

Over the past decade, especially the last 5yrs, I've been in several VERY emotionally abusive relationships. My role has been my house's fulltime unpaid therapist, since childhood, even after moving into a home with "found family". My biggest abuser just moved out of my home ~2 months ago, so I've felt safe enough to try therapy again... and I immediately got diagnosed with cptsd (and more).

It explains a lot. A decade ago, I used to go out with friends, chat up and meet new people like it's nothing. I used to be able to do many different chores, self-care, cook for the household multiple days a week. I used to be able to pump out art at a decent pace.

I'm now a complete shut-in, terrified of going outside even to my backyard. I reschedule doctor's appointments constantly due to the nausea that comes with the impending appointment. I struggle to text my own mom once a month. Making a small meal for myself is an ordeal. My entire body is in constant pain, and when I'm even a little stressed, it compounds so much.

I thought I'd have learned another language by now, learned how to code to make videogames, built a more stable career, been able to support my loved ones financially... or, at least, y'know, own more than like, 5 t-shirts.

I feel very pathetic and embarrassed from my disability and financial instability. I want to reclaim my life. I think I can through therapy, but having to take on more and more commissions while trying to recover in the next few months feels like it'll prolong my recovery by so much time.

I want the financial stress to end.

In order of priority:

$700 is how much I need to pay off immediate bills.

$6,250.71 is how much I owe the IRS in taxes over the past few years.

$4,082.73 is how much I still owe in student loans, despite never finishing a single year.

Getting rid of these would change my life a lot. But I'll settle for anything I can get. I really doubt it, but, if somehow I break past that... a cheap car would save me and my house a lot of money, and help me relearn to be okay outside of my house.

Thank you so much for reading. Thanks for donating, too. Even $1 helps, really.