I have been going to therapy for a few months now because of my anxiety and depression and while I know that these things take their time to become manageable, I'm making baby steps in the right direction.

One thing my therapist suggested is to make plans while pretending that I don't have anxiety. The idea is that right now I don't even consider many of the ways I have to improve my wellbeing because my brain dismisses them before even looking at the steps that would get me there.

If I ignore that kind of defeatist thinking and make plans just in case I might end up realising that things are actually easier to achieve than my anxious mind allowed me to realise. So that's what I'm doing. I'll start tackling the biggest issue I have and just see how far I can get. Just in case. 

That issue is my eyesight. I was born with a condition that boils down to the muscles in my eyes that control the pupils being to weak which means I can't focus on any single thing with both pupils. The result is that I have double vision and very bad eyesight that can't be fixed with glasses.

This can be fixed with surgery but I never even seriously considered doing it because 1. the idea of (any kind) of surgery is super scary to me and 2. it's not covered by health insurance. I'm working on the first point. If you, and I know that's asking a lot, want to help me with the second you can do so here.

Thank You!