Expense help while helping myslef

All my life I've struggled with bipolar. The extreme usp and the even more extreme downs. Always been the one to try and self medicate for the immediate gratification. With that I have dove to the bottom. Reached the darkest of the lows, and tried to end it all. But I'm still here. And with that o know a change is in order, first being a rehab/psych clinic. Unfortunately it comes at a cost as the cost of saving a life isnt enough. With being gone I will have no income. And without I loose it all. I just want a home to come back to as well as for my son. A place that him and his daddy can grow up in, make valuable memories in and grow. Anything will help. And as a proud soul, I beg of your help.. help me become the father my son needs, and worse thinks I am. Help me defeat these thoughts and this illness. To grow old and die as intended,  not by my own hand. Help my son. So that he has a long good life with his father.