Please consider helping Kikki with her transition.

I’m Kikki. You may know me as Kiikz or at one point Trey. Some of you know the trans woman I am today and some of you know the man I used to be. The boy I tried to be.

Some of you may have met the person that was Trey and seen that I wasn’t very happy then. I wasn’t happy in my skin, in my head, in my mind. He was always depressed, self conscious, sad behind the eyes. Hiding behind a mask. Then I realised I was not Trey and had not been “him” ever. Since I can remember. But life and pressure and the church and shame really made things impossible for me to fully just take the step to live as I need to be.

Some of you have only known Kikki and I’m sure you’ve seen a confident, funny, strong woman with purpose. A mother to my gaybies. A storyteller. An artist with a message and a desire to fight for what is right and pure. This is the true me. This is who I deserve to become. This is who I am.

Now, I feel I need to take a bigger step and start to do so medically so I’m asking for help. I never ask for help. Pride and shame really prevent me from asking. But here I am. Asking my community for a hand to cover some of the costs to change. I’ve donated to everyone of these kinds of fundraisers set up by my trans siblings and I think it’s time I reap what I’ve sown.

I’ve been trolled a bit regarding this and har started questioning if this was right. One of the things that has been said to me was that none of what I’m asking for is really “essential”. I beg to differ. This money will go towards medical expenses for procedures that will enable me to start to live the life I want to live. These procedures will most likely enable me to be able to feel safe in public, to be able to navigate the world without fear. These procedures however don’t define me as a transwoman.

This will also go towards getting my gender markers on important life documents changed. It kills me every time I have to use my dead name and it’s time to let him go.

I hope you will consider helping a girl out.

Thank you so much x