Embarrassing as it is, I need help.

Hello to all my family and friends. I am extremely embarrassed that I need to do this. Never did I think at 50 years old would I hit rock bottom. Three weeks ago a kidney stone came on and two weeks after I had surgery to remove it. I lost my job because I had no sick time left. They also dropped my pay down saying I quit and lost a third of my normal pay. I’ve been trying to make money by driving for Uber. But every day I have complications from the stent in my body which makes driving and moving very uncomfortable and it doesn’t come out til Friday. I only eat once a day because that’s all I can afford. Lost over 20 lbs in three weeks. No matter how I figure the numbers I’m not going to be able to make rent or even my first car payment or the numerous other bills. I’m so embarrassed it has come to this. I got a new job but it doesn’t start until after the new year. My anxiety and stress are higher than any point in my life. Some days it’s a struggle to even function. I don’t go out at all. I don’t drink. I barely talk to anyone. I want to get mental help but can’t afford it without insurance. Half my medical bills from the kidney stone fiasco won’t be covered due to being out of network. I’m finding it hard to even keep going anymore.

This is so hard for me to do. If you can afford to help me it is so appreciated you don’t even know. I’m literally in tears as I write this. I feel this is my last resort and no other options. I’m seriously considering moving back home in the near future. Seems the Phoenix experiment has failed like I have so much in life. If you can help I will forever be in your debt. I feel more alone than I ever have in life. I want to be the happy Sean everyone knows. Not this person I don’t even recognize anymore. Thank you.