Help Ellen with surgery and life

Not really sure where to begin.  I've had back pain for years.  The last 2 years it has been at its worst.  At times it's been hard to function normally like even getting in and out of a chair.  Docs always found nothing wrong over the past few years and just dished out pain pills and/or physical therapy.  Seperate problem (so I thought) was my periods. I've been bleeding out of control for about 2 years as well.  This has made me anemic which in itself has made me always feel completely exhausted and without much motivation. I finally became too ill and sick and in so much pain with limited movement along with bleeding for 4 weeks straight before a doctor took the time to explore other options after he also felt a large mass in my lower abdomen.  Turns out the back pain and bleeding issues are related.  This past Feb they discovered I have 3 very large uterine fibroids (2 are the size of grapefruits, the other is like a small baby resting ontop of my bladder). I don't have insurance, didn't qualify for Obamacare at the time and was unable to get regular insurance with a pre existing condition.  I now qualify for Obamacare enrollment and have applied however the deductible is still the same amount as paying for the surgery outright except now I also will have a monthly payment and other costs. 
They say fibroids typically aren't cancerous but because I don't have insurance they won't do a biopsy. There's a lot they won't do without insurance or money up front. The best I've been able to do is try to maintain the pain and rate of growth with docs while paying out of pocket. I've been in too much physical pain to continue working since June.  Luckily I had savings but it has all been spent paying bills, trying to have a life and maintaining the pain with pills and docs visits.  In the process of treatments my doctors have also discovered I have  endometriosis. This discovery explains a lot of the extreme pain.  Well now all the money is gone but the pain is not. I've explored every option possible and have not qualified for any assistance medically or financially even with next to zero income.  I work small jobs when I can but even the pain for a few hours of work can set me back days.  Some days I can barely get out of bed now.  I'm embarrassed to ask for money or help and haven't even told most of my friends or family about my situation or condition until now but I'm at my wits end.  I can't take this pain anymore.  I can barely think straight at times the pain is so overwhelming. I wan't to live again. I want to get back to work and not feel like I'm a waste and useless. I want to get back to having a life.  I want to be able to even do something so simple as sitting straight up or getting out of bed not like a turtle stuck on it's back or being able to stand or walk around for even an hour. I want to be able to eat and not feel sick because there's fibroids taking up so much space in there.  I want to not feel my skin stretching out as they grow. I want it to not hurt just to wear pants. I want to be able to sleep through the night without waking up to absolute agony. I want to not cry every single day at some point in pain.  I want my life back. 
I need a hysterectomy to not only remove the fibroids in and through my uterus but to remove the endometriosis and stop this from happening again.  If I can raise enough money here I can get the surgery, keep my home and after a 6-8 week recovery period get back to living life and working again.  I'm sorry to ask for help.  I'm not normally the type to ask for help of any kind but I just can't live with this pain any longer.  Please help me get back to life. Thank you for reading this and thank you so much if you donate. Anything at all will help.
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Ellen Desper 
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Pinellas Park, FL
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