hey everyone!
:- ) :-) :-) 

i am raising money because i am getting top surgery.
my top surgery is going to be on Feb. 23rd, 2021. 

i'm fundraising now so i can be prepared and cover any additional costs.  
$3,000 is the amount that would cover the surgery and all the additional medical bills. 

this is super exciting! and emotional! and financially stressful! 

this surgery will quite literally make my life so much easier and will be so beneficial for me, as my back pain & chest pain keep increasing the more i tape/the more the years go on, and i don't feel comfortable even leaving the house without anything covering my chest... 
much less going to classes or dancing or doing anything else. 

when i was younger, i remember crying all the time when i looked at myself in mirror - i remember feeling like a stranger in my own body. and sometimes i still feel that way.
even years after coming out and being on hormones!
i can still be very dissociative from my body, especially my chest,
and i know surgery will help this. i know HRT has already helped me with this. but my dysphoria still brings me frequent mental stress and anxiety/panic, as well as making my depressive thoughts spiral.

seeing other trans friends go through their own surgeries and other medical procedures, made me feel like i could do this, and made it more of a reality to me. 
i can't at the moment afford this on my own, even with my family’s financial and insurance help. my insurance is only paying for a portion of my surgery, since my deductible is high.

i didn't want to make my lack of access to jobs, money, good insurance, and financial stress in general, make me turn away from this, and not take care of myself in that way. 

when i think about top surgery - it feels like allowing myself to be free in my body, and to feel happy, to be able to move how i want without distress.
i want to look at myself and feel like it’s really me, and to be able to experience my body without my chest dysphoria. i want to start living with comfort & happiness. & i deserve that!

soooo, in conclusion!
i started a gofundme for these top surgery expenses!
i'm reaching out to y'all, to see if you can help me to achieve this goal. plse help with donating however much you can. and don’t be afraid to share! 

i'll be so thankful.

thank you for reading, 
leó  (lequeerangel) <3