Support Shawna's Just trying to get through

UPDATE 7/9/25- I've been on unemployment, but it's not much, and has barely been able to cover anything except rent. I've reached out to family and friends, some have helped where they can with food and such, and for that I'm grateful. However, I have been unable to cover my car payment, let alone get it fixed (needs calipers and rotors). Now my car is up for repossession and they will not work with me until I make a payment of 355.00 to get it out of repo status. My electric bill is now 2 months behind at 225.00, my gas bill is also 2 months behind at 119.00 and my internet will be cut off on the 18th if I cannot pay the past due on it 133.00. My credit has taken a complete tank, not even worried about the credit cards at this point.

All I have gotten in responses about jobs is scams, pyramid schemes, and pay us to get "certified" type jobs or just complete rejections. I've only had one legit interview and they completely ghosted me.

As much as I've tried to catch things up they still are behind because this is now 5 months going on trying to find work. I've applied to hundreds of places, I look at job boards daily, and shy of just starting my own business (which gotta have money to do that), I don't know what else to do. I hate asking for help, I hate begging and have thought about just ending myself on more than one occasion because my depression has gotten that severe. Yet...I still get up, I still try, I still hope, even now I'm in tears writing this because I feel so effing lost.

Hi everyone,

This is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do and absolutely hate to—asking for help. But after unexpectedly losing my job in February, through no fault of my own, I’ve found myself struggling to keep up with monthly bills while searching for new work.

Right now, my main focus is staying afloat—making sure I can cover rent, utilities, groceries, and basic expenses while I work hard to find stable employment.

UPDATE 5/25- I am doing everything I can to keep up with bills, but unemployment goes only so far, and I am now about to lose everything in my storage unit, my car is now 3 months behind as well as broken down needing a new caliper and rotor. On top of that I now have a tooth infection and can't afford to get it pulled either. It's just been one thing after another and I don't know what else to do.

I’m not asking for luxury, just a chance to catch my breath and get back on my feet. Every donation, no matter the size, will help keep me going while I work toward a fresh start.

Your support—whether through a donation, or sharing it—means the world to me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for believing in me and helping me move forward.

If anyone would rather donate directly to venmo @EmeraldRose79, paypal @emerald079 or cashapp $emerald079 that actually would be preferred since gofundme takes a percentage of donations as well as takes several days to clear the bank account. Or I can provide the links to the bills directly as well.

With love and gratitude,

Shawna