To my friends and family,

 

I want to start by saying thank you to anyone that clicked on this link. I want you to know I appreciate you from the bottom of my heart. This is something I never saw myself doing, but I've been told it's okay to ask for help, so that's what I'm doing here.

 

For those that are unaware, in May of this year I lost my battle against my mental health, and I attempted to take my own life. I've always battled depression, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts, but I never thought I would succumb to it. Since the attempt, my life has been an uphill struggle. I'm trying my hardest to heal, to know my worth, to know I'm loved, and to know I have purpose.

 

In the midst of trying to get a grip on my mental health, my financial life has come to tatters. My mom whom you all love and adore has been an angel in my life, as she always has been, helping me get back on my feet. But all our lives we've struggled financially, and I can't keep burdening her. Mom is unaware I'm posting this, so Mom when you see this, I love you with all my heart, and thank you so much for everything you've done and been in my life.

 

I wanted to stay quiet about my attempt and the state of my mental for as long as I could so I could process everything without outside influences. I've been finding help, going to therapy, a psychiatrist, reaching out to my closest friends and family. I finally feel myself healing, and seeing it noticeably. Unfortunately the financial turmoil I've entered through this process has left me feeling like I can't breathe. All funds that were existent have been used up. I've started working again and doing what I can, but the finances have piled up more than I can comprehend.

 

All my life I have taken care of myself. But for these last several months I've been unable to. I will get back to the point of taking care of myself. I will become all the things I can be. But as of now, I need help. I just want to be able to breathe, to stabilize my legs underneath me, so I can take life on with even footing.

 

Thank you to anyone and everyone for any support in any manner. From the bottom of my heart.

 

Yours truly,

Matthew Hayden Ray