Help Winter with Finances After Mental Health Crash

Hey y'all!

With my mental health decline this summer, I have not been able to work and I have used all of my emergency funds. I need help to pay for rent and help me get over this hump.

My energy work has become massive and I need my cup to be poured into on a much greater scale to continue.

For those who don't know:

A year ago I started planning a really amazing t.ntric event and client space next door to my house. After months of planning, the landlord backed out of the project. This would have helped me see more clients, facilitate more events, host er.tic art nights, and earn rental income from other facilitators and practitioners. Also a year ago, my main marketing for my bodywork ceased. So I lost an opportunity to expand my reach, and my normal reach was gutted.

Within this year, I've learned both that I am autistic and that I am a Polish Jew descendant of a refugee from Warsaw - meaning my childhood s.xual abuse was a German white supremacist assaulting his Jewish step-daughter.

Unmasking and digging into this new facet of my epigenetics and karma has been major. I've been self isolating, drawing within, hibernating, and purging.

Earlier this year, a lover experiencing intense mental health challenges lived with me while processing his sister's su!c!de. At the same time as this, I was preparing to work specifically with recovering s.xual assaulters on their road to recovery through hands-on work, and that came with a lot of heavy weight and emotional processing.

This summer, I faced the most freedom and darkest point of complete acceptance of dying, begging The Powers That Be to take me.

I've been doing deep energy work in the earth and collective timelines. It's been really cool to see the impacts of my work already presenting, and also I'm very much tapped out and need to be refilled.

Now I'm on antidepressants for the first time in my life and the side effects have been intense for me, continuing an already debilitating and sedentary year. Just yesterday I started with a new doctor because I felt my last one was dismissive and the new one confirmed my first doctor had me on WAY too high a dose and my symptoms were extreme due to that prescribed over dose.

With all of this - I have a new project being born that's a focus on spirituality, mental health, sacred spaces, interior design, organization, practical and efficient systems, and art. It's absolutely the reason I'm still alive right now, and I will be doing fundraising and marketing for that in the coming months.

I need help to cover my expenses in the meantime. Help me get from where I am to where I'm heading, and help me stay in this beautiful home I've spent the last 18 months redecorating!

My capacity to hustle and pick up gigs or clients is in the negatives, and I don't want to offer discounted services to drum up support. I simply am opening myself up to receive - a trust fall.

Thanks so much for reading, sharing, donating, sending me good wishes, bringing me food, loving me, etc etc etc.

You're da bestest

(here's my venmo for those who have asked)