help a young disabled adult escape an abusive situation

Hi, I'll stay anonymous on here for safety reasons (Gordon tulle is a fake name). I'm 19, I've been emotionally abused by my birthgivers since I was born and physically until my early teenage years. I've developed PTSD from it and recently found out I'm actually disabled and have always been. My disability and emotional damage kept me from processing all of it happening, and it took me even longer to realise it is still ongoing. It has deeply broken me and I am not functional whatsoever: I cannot work to provide for myself and I'm forced to stay with the birthgiver I'm left with. It is extremely traumatic on a daily basis, and I have no help coming even from doctors who simply do not know shit about my disability and still give inappropriate (therefore harmful) "care" thanks to systemic ableism. I'm shaking from fear and all of my unprocessed trauma along with the current daily one, and I wonder if I'm gonna make it out of this alive and if not; how? Staying in the environment that's caused me lifelong trauma and wounds is cause for chronic pain which again disables me. I will be using this money to live independently and sustain my and my cat's (see picture) basic needs, for a few months to a year. I'm not sure how far I'll go with 5 000 since expenses are that of late stage capitalism, but even if I end up homeless I'll have lived a little bit, or at least given myself a chance to.

I hope this'll work out. Thank you for trusting me.

Update:

The situation has not gotten any better, instead worse. I cannot say I am surprised, as my symptoms are what I am getting abused for and are what worsens when the abuse also does. Please consider helping me, I am fighting everyday not to kill myself because of the pain, the fear, the nightmares, the constant symptoms of every comorbidity. I actually want to stay alive. I'm begging. Please share, I cannot overstate how urgent my situation is I am in pain all the time, every waking and standing second I just want to heal, try to live now that I know myself what's been wrong with me all this time. Im just so mad I was robbed of whole life and hope, I keep standing probably because I've always been pretty hard headed. I cannot keep going where I am. Please.

topo en français

Je reste anonyme pour des raisons de sécurité. J'ai 19 ans, je suis dans une situation d'urgence, qui malheureusement n'a fait que s'empirer. Je suis atteint de plusieurs troubles handicapants, dont le TDAH et l'autisme, mais le fait est que je n'ai jamais reçu le soutien adapté et je suis aujourd'hui en burn out le plus total et ma fonctionnalité est réduite à presque zéro, en plus du développement de maladies chroniques qui font du moindre effort de trop une souffrance. Je suis donc, a l'évidence, en incapacité de travailler, ce qui est ironiquement également la raison pour laquelle mon père a finalement décidé de mettre à la porte après avoir empiré et ignoré la sévérité de mes symptômes.

Je cherche à pouvoir me trouver un environnement adapté à mon état actuel qui n'encouragerait que ma guérison et pas de traumatismes à la queue, comme ça a été le cas la majeure partie de ma vie. j'espère pouvoir garder mon chat également.

14/07/25 update

Thank you so much for the first donations! I hardly thought anyone would ever care so much, I extend my best wishes to you ❤️

Still disabled over here, if anyone was wondering still sad, still mad, still going